when i'm with you i feel like i could die and that would be all right.
I have no idea how it came to this. Not one damn clue.
I feel like breaking up with Jake was a good thing. but I really really miss him. Or maybe, I miss the idea of him. I was betting the rest of my life on him. He was supposed to be "the one." I was ready for that. He apparently was not. I really hope that this wasn't a mistake, breaking up with him. I just feel empty inside. Maybe it'll go away. Maybe. It's been just over two weeks, and I haven't cried as much as I thought I would. Maybe that's because I'm tired of crying over him. I can't count how many times I have come home crying because of him. Crying so hard that I couldn't breathe. Crying so hard that my mom had to calm me down for at least an hour. Maybe I'm just tired of being upset. My subconscious knows better than my conscious... I just have to wait for my conscious to catch up. I'll be fine.
I move back to Central on Saturday. and I can't fricking wait. I am REALLY sick of my parents. I am really sick of Jake continually texting me for an illusion of 'friendship.' I am tired of waking up at 6am every morning for work. I am ready to be back in my comfort zone.
♥
I feel like breaking up with Jake was a good thing. but I really really miss him. Or maybe, I miss the idea of him. I was betting the rest of my life on him. He was supposed to be "the one." I was ready for that. He apparently was not. I really hope that this wasn't a mistake, breaking up with him. I just feel empty inside. Maybe it'll go away. Maybe. It's been just over two weeks, and I haven't cried as much as I thought I would. Maybe that's because I'm tired of crying over him. I can't count how many times I have come home crying because of him. Crying so hard that I couldn't breathe. Crying so hard that my mom had to calm me down for at least an hour. Maybe I'm just tired of being upset. My subconscious knows better than my conscious... I just have to wait for my conscious to catch up. I'll be fine.
I move back to Central on Saturday. and I can't fricking wait. I am REALLY sick of my parents. I am really sick of Jake continually texting me for an illusion of 'friendship.' I am tired of waking up at 6am every morning for work. I am ready to be back in my comfort zone.
♥