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was back at work today and quite enjoyed it. I ended up running PT for my section and made a guy puke from running (well, dry heaves really) so apparently I'm not as out of shape as I thought I was. Then we spent the morning emptying and reloading a connex (shipping container) that was hot and sweaty work and I enjoyed it.
Got a message from my sister to call immediately, turns out my mother is haveing (another) nervous breakdown and may be temp. committed for making suicidal statements. I think she really needs to get out the house with my sister. And due to making a long trip to make it to a funeral, my sister can't pain any of her bills and has asked for a couple thousand dollars to get her up to speed. Wonderful.
We're buying a car. A '94 Chevy Astro van, Shitting gas mileage, but a REALLY nice van and it's mainly for me to ride to work and back so only a few miles a day. And it's really cheap.
But I'm so stressing out over my family. We're trying to get things arranged so my mom can move down here, I thin it'll do her a LOT of good to be on her own, able to control her environment to a certain extent. And I don't think for a second that my mother is suicidal, she gets hysterical and runs off with the mouth, but she's obvisously not doing well but won't tell me that anything's wrong (protecting her baby boy and all) which makes it harder to help out. Plus I really dont' like my sister asking for so much money, if I fork it over I think she'll just ask for more. But she really is in a bad situation right now, even if it is mostly their own fault (they're not good with money). Damn. And I had planned on getting my bike fixed and getting some new furniture.
Stuff between me and Tanya are doing a lot better. I'm still not entirely sure why I want out of this marriage so bad. Yeah, it sucks at times and I've done a LOT of bitching about her on here, but I don't spend any time talking about what goes right either. I'm not any less confused, but a lot happier.
But the confusion itself is such a drain on my life. I don't want to put my family through that, but I want a differnt life/family at the same time.
Got a message from my sister to call immediately, turns out my mother is haveing (another) nervous breakdown and may be temp. committed for making suicidal statements. I think she really needs to get out the house with my sister. And due to making a long trip to make it to a funeral, my sister can't pain any of her bills and has asked for a couple thousand dollars to get her up to speed. Wonderful.
We're buying a car. A '94 Chevy Astro van, Shitting gas mileage, but a REALLY nice van and it's mainly for me to ride to work and back so only a few miles a day. And it's really cheap.
But I'm so stressing out over my family. We're trying to get things arranged so my mom can move down here, I thin it'll do her a LOT of good to be on her own, able to control her environment to a certain extent. And I don't think for a second that my mother is suicidal, she gets hysterical and runs off with the mouth, but she's obvisously not doing well but won't tell me that anything's wrong (protecting her baby boy and all) which makes it harder to help out. Plus I really dont' like my sister asking for so much money, if I fork it over I think she'll just ask for more. But she really is in a bad situation right now, even if it is mostly their own fault (they're not good with money). Damn. And I had planned on getting my bike fixed and getting some new furniture.
Stuff between me and Tanya are doing a lot better. I'm still not entirely sure why I want out of this marriage so bad. Yeah, it sucks at times and I've done a LOT of bitching about her on here, but I don't spend any time talking about what goes right either. I'm not any less confused, but a lot happier.
But the confusion itself is such a drain on my life. I don't want to put my family through that, but I want a differnt life/family at the same time.