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The more I think about it, the more I don't want it. The more I realize its not me and I'm wasting their time. I can't afford all new clothes, that I probably won't wear ever again, just to work there. And I'm not being lazy about a job. I just want to find one that suits me. I would rather have a job that I enjoy and am comfortable at than have to TOLERATE going to work everyday.
And I know I need the money. But I think it would be awful of me to go in there knowing that I'm only going to get a couple paychecks out of them before I leave for something better. They are doing alot for me just to get an interview. Niki constantly sucks up to them for me. So they have this idea that I'm PREFECT for the job. (Which I am definitely not.)
I have to get up early to go buy a pair of black heels because all of mine are open-toe. I can't believe I have to waste money on more crap that I don't want. Or need. I definitely DO NOT need another pair of shoes. I feel like I'm trying to get a part in a play, but its not fun like theatre. Its just lying.
And I know I need the money. But I think it would be awful of me to go in there knowing that I'm only going to get a couple paychecks out of them before I leave for something better. They are doing alot for me just to get an interview. Niki constantly sucks up to them for me. So they have this idea that I'm PREFECT for the job. (Which I am definitely not.)
I have to get up early to go buy a pair of black heels because all of mine are open-toe. I can't believe I have to waste money on more crap that I don't want. Or need. I definitely DO NOT need another pair of shoes. I feel like I'm trying to get a part in a play, but its not fun like theatre. Its just lying.