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My only worry with Mamie’s passing is that I have no idea what her spiritual state was. I’ve always found it cheap to become a Christian just to ensure your eternal salvation. I believe that it’s a lifestyle choice and a relationship with Christ. The week before we left, however, I found myself really worried about her eternal salvation, for my own selfish reason that I want to see her again. After her divorce, the Catholic Church turned its back on her, and she was left to fend for herself. There are not a lot of protestant churches in France, certainly not to the extent of North America having one on every other street corner, so she did not have the option of going elsewhere. She maintained a faith in God, but she was also rather pluralistic, and believed in astrology and some eastern mysticism. So I have no idea as to where she was, and how that is panning out for her at the moment. She saw mine and my mother’s faith (and found that my mom took it a bit too far with having so many kids and letting her husband walk all over her for too long), and I know she wasn’t on the same page as us, but surprisingly it’s the only topic that I never got into a big discussion with her about… and I don’t know if I should be ashamed for that. I know it’s too late now, and that there’s absolutely nothing I can do, but it’s still nagging me a bit…