What the .....
Okay, so yesterday when I was leaving the jail I ran into the girl that James had sex with while in the center. TODAY - to boot... I find out that I WORK with the girl he was having sex with while we were broke up last year. WTF? I God laughing at me? I mean, seriously, what kind of roller coaster is this? I have to look at this lady every day, till I leave WIC? This girl that KNOWS what my man feels like? his smell? his touch? I don't want to talk about how my man is in bed, not with some one who knows.
I'm not mad at her, no... It makes me want to throw up. yanno? That feeling in the pit of your stomach? Every time I look at her. Thats how I feel. I can't help but picture in my head what happened.. in like a movie scene going through.. over and over. Them naked together ... well, you know the rest.
Not bad enough? she recognized me, and said "you used to mess with James?" I said yes... She proceeds to tell me that he was good in bed ... and I stopped her and said "yes, we're still together" ... She got quiet and I walked away.
ugh. just sick.
I'm not mad at her, no... It makes me want to throw up. yanno? That feeling in the pit of your stomach? Every time I look at her. Thats how I feel. I can't help but picture in my head what happened.. in like a movie scene going through.. over and over. Them naked together ... well, you know the rest.
Not bad enough? she recognized me, and said "you used to mess with James?" I said yes... She proceeds to tell me that he was good in bed ... and I stopped her and said "yes, we're still together" ... She got quiet and I walked away.
ugh. just sick.