Damn I hate this.
Everthing is going great. I can practicly have whatever I want. So why am I not so sure anymore? Its so hard to please everyone. Especially when they blame you for whatever. It realy pisses me off. I'm not going to ever hate them. Ever. And that's why I realy have to think this over. But I have no one left to talk to. So, it's just realy confusing. Like, I want it soo bad. But then, i don't want to, because of someone else who just realy hates me right now. It's not like I havn't herd what they've been saying about me. It's not like I can't tell whats going on. So why the fuck are you being like this?! IT'S NOT MY FAULT. I wish you'd just give me a chance. Because now, it realy does seem like it's all my fault. And I feel terrible. And I hate it. I hate feeling like this. I can have everything I've ever wanted, but now, i don't know what I want anymore. I'm soo lost. I wish I had someone else to talk to, but everyone is just so damn far away. Can you just give me a chance?