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eh. i've been really moody lately. like normally it's like good day = good mood and bad day = bad mood. now my moods change like every two seconds. i don't like it. in third today i had three mood swings. it was crazy. the fact that i feel like i'm tagging along w. everyone doesn't help the situation either. i don't think i'm showing my mood swings that much or else i'd think that was the reason. but i've felt this way for a while. i dunno. it goes from one extreme to the other. that just annoys me which puts me in a worse mood. blah. i can't stop whining. that might be part of it. whine whine whine. well that's what this is for, correct? i dunno. even my best friends are like, go away lauren. yesterday i freaked out majorly. i called mum first and she didn't answer. called kenz and she didn't answer. so finally i t/med tyler of all people and told him to get online. but then something happened and i couldn't talk to him. oh yes...the weirdest part of all. me...the girl who doesn't cry...cried three times...in one day. and only once did i have a reason. well one of the other times i kinda had a reason maybe (kenz things i did) but i don't know what it was. hrm. i'm thinking about going back to my psychiatrist...even though she did shit for me before. the only one i can really talk to is mum and she just thinks i'm going crazy. i don't know. that's all i can say...I DON'T KNOW. gooooooooooosh. I JUST DON'T FUCKING KNOW.