dress to impress
I plan on making this one of the longest entries I've ever made. Watch out.
Point #1: I don't wanna move into my new house tomorrow. I like the idea of having my own place... but this place isn't where I need to be. I'm being used for rent money and nothing else... and I'm walking into a terrible situation. I'm very put out with one roommate, Mariet, who has practically disowned me all semester. We have been best friends (at UT) for two years and when Lauren goes back to Indy, it's her and Katey that take the bestfriend roles. She's done a horrible job at being a friend, infact I wouldn't even call her that anymore. Friends see eachother more than once a month (if you live in the same city ;) hehe), and actually pick up when you call. They return your phone call after you've left a message and they don't use excuses like "i was taking a nap" every time I call for 5 days straight.
The only time she really wants me as a friend is when she knows that I'm paying the rent for the closet i'm moving into so she doesn't have to pay an extra $200 a month on top of the rediculous 375 we're paying for this tiny dump (with cochroaches might i add). Mollie's the same way she is (the girl who's room I'm moving in to since she's studying abroad), about a month ago i saw her leaving her house in traffic and I called to tell her "I see you.." pointless but nevertheless I hadn't talked to her in weeks either. (my best friends...) She picked it up, saw who was calling, and ignored the call. I'm really happy that I can do these people a favor by inconviencing myself for an entire semester. The thing that really bothers me is next year I don't have anyplace to live. They said last year that if I wanted to live with them our senior year, we'd find a 4 bedroom so everyone could live together. Mariet told me last month that they're tired of moving and just wanna stay in that house... tough shit basically.
I'm tired of friends like that. It's been the lonliest semester ever living at home. Katey and Rachel have their apartment in south knoxville (too far away) and they both have boyfriends to boot. So I see them once a week at meeting and sometimes an occasional dinner. Last semester I drove to Indiana more to see Lauren than I have ever. I just feel really left out from everyone's lives. To compensate I've been resorting to my guy friends that don't really give a crap about me either. Forrest has a new girlfriend (actually she's old, he's recycling) but that's put me out of the picture as a friend pretty much. Up until they started dating he filled the best friend position for me... which wasn't meant to last. We even had to have a talk about it where he told me he couldn't be that girlfriend of mine who I tell everything to. He wished that Lauren was here so he didn't have to have the responsibility that I gave him. Understandable.
It's just hard having him go from hanging out 5-7 times a week to saying things like "Well, it was nice talking with you, but I need to fix my computer, how about I call you in three days?" What I want to say to that is, "wow thanks for fitting me in, i really had a lot more to tell you considering we haven't spoken in a week, but i guess the computer is more important to me, as well as other things that could possibly fill your time in the next three days," but what I end up saying is, "i guess so."
I've gained about 5 pounds since October. It could be from the binge eating and massive amounts of movies and lack of exercise. I called it stress eating for a while but I didn't have anything to be stressed about. I think it turned more into depressive eating and now I just don't know what it is. I want to work out everyday like I did this summer but not having anyone to impress kinda takes the motivation out of wanting to exercise. On a lighter note my grades turned out better than they've ever been: 4 A's and 2 B's. Yeah Magna Cumlade.. however u spell it.
I think i'm going to move back on Massey my senior year. Long story, don't wanna explain. Might fall into the wrong hands :)
I've started hanging out with one of Jeremy's friend's. We're like night and day. He's fun to hang out with though, he showed me Cades Cove on Tuesday... we chased deer and took pictures. Then we had sushi at Nama and called it at night. However we had an 8 hour day together. I've already told him that I think we should stay friends but I don't know if it's settled yet. We'll see.
Tonight I saw Rumor Has It... it's kinda cute. I wouldn't see it again, but it's a fun flick.
I guess I can't make this the longest entry I've ever had unless I tell the living situation next year story, but I think that's a sacrifice I'm just willing to make. I'm calling it a night. So... good night!
EDIT: PS- I just took Riah's "what kinda girl are you quiz" and I'm a hybrid between an Uptown Girl and a Gourmet Girl... which means "I can talk for more than ten minutes about: being a debutante. " har har har
Point #1: I don't wanna move into my new house tomorrow. I like the idea of having my own place... but this place isn't where I need to be. I'm being used for rent money and nothing else... and I'm walking into a terrible situation. I'm very put out with one roommate, Mariet, who has practically disowned me all semester. We have been best friends (at UT) for two years and when Lauren goes back to Indy, it's her and Katey that take the bestfriend roles. She's done a horrible job at being a friend, infact I wouldn't even call her that anymore. Friends see eachother more than once a month (if you live in the same city ;) hehe), and actually pick up when you call. They return your phone call after you've left a message and they don't use excuses like "i was taking a nap" every time I call for 5 days straight.
The only time she really wants me as a friend is when she knows that I'm paying the rent for the closet i'm moving into so she doesn't have to pay an extra $200 a month on top of the rediculous 375 we're paying for this tiny dump (with cochroaches might i add). Mollie's the same way she is (the girl who's room I'm moving in to since she's studying abroad), about a month ago i saw her leaving her house in traffic and I called to tell her "I see you.." pointless but nevertheless I hadn't talked to her in weeks either. (my best friends...) She picked it up, saw who was calling, and ignored the call. I'm really happy that I can do these people a favor by inconviencing myself for an entire semester. The thing that really bothers me is next year I don't have anyplace to live. They said last year that if I wanted to live with them our senior year, we'd find a 4 bedroom so everyone could live together. Mariet told me last month that they're tired of moving and just wanna stay in that house... tough shit basically.
I'm tired of friends like that. It's been the lonliest semester ever living at home. Katey and Rachel have their apartment in south knoxville (too far away) and they both have boyfriends to boot. So I see them once a week at meeting and sometimes an occasional dinner. Last semester I drove to Indiana more to see Lauren than I have ever. I just feel really left out from everyone's lives. To compensate I've been resorting to my guy friends that don't really give a crap about me either. Forrest has a new girlfriend (actually she's old, he's recycling) but that's put me out of the picture as a friend pretty much. Up until they started dating he filled the best friend position for me... which wasn't meant to last. We even had to have a talk about it where he told me he couldn't be that girlfriend of mine who I tell everything to. He wished that Lauren was here so he didn't have to have the responsibility that I gave him. Understandable.
It's just hard having him go from hanging out 5-7 times a week to saying things like "Well, it was nice talking with you, but I need to fix my computer, how about I call you in three days?" What I want to say to that is, "wow thanks for fitting me in, i really had a lot more to tell you considering we haven't spoken in a week, but i guess the computer is more important to me, as well as other things that could possibly fill your time in the next three days," but what I end up saying is, "i guess so."
I've gained about 5 pounds since October. It could be from the binge eating and massive amounts of movies and lack of exercise. I called it stress eating for a while but I didn't have anything to be stressed about. I think it turned more into depressive eating and now I just don't know what it is. I want to work out everyday like I did this summer but not having anyone to impress kinda takes the motivation out of wanting to exercise. On a lighter note my grades turned out better than they've ever been: 4 A's and 2 B's. Yeah Magna Cumlade.. however u spell it.
I think i'm going to move back on Massey my senior year. Long story, don't wanna explain. Might fall into the wrong hands :)
I've started hanging out with one of Jeremy's friend's. We're like night and day. He's fun to hang out with though, he showed me Cades Cove on Tuesday... we chased deer and took pictures. Then we had sushi at Nama and called it at night. However we had an 8 hour day together. I've already told him that I think we should stay friends but I don't know if it's settled yet. We'll see.
Tonight I saw Rumor Has It... it's kinda cute. I wouldn't see it again, but it's a fun flick.
I guess I can't make this the longest entry I've ever had unless I tell the living situation next year story, but I think that's a sacrifice I'm just willing to make. I'm calling it a night. So... good night!
EDIT: PS- I just took Riah's "what kinda girl are you quiz" and I'm a hybrid between an Uptown Girl and a Gourmet Girl... which means "I can talk for more than ten minutes about: being a debutante. " har har har