VENT
Im venting right now....
I am upset...Im kinda always upset not because of friends or anything but because of on specific person. I love this person 100% with every inch of my body...like do you know how that feels? Yea know its all great and such...But what kills is when this person starts to decline from you the heart aching knife in the stomach everything hurts kind of decline...and you dont know what to do with yourself..heartbreak at its fullest...sucks doesn't it. Maybe this isnt forever maybe its a short period thing...i dont know but what kills is the thoughts...the thoughts that a friend might be trying to get him to meet other girls a thought that Ill lose him forever a thought that kills me. Maybe Im just over reacting. Maybe Im not. Maybe you understand me..and the hurt..I just want to be happy. I want to be ok with everything. I Love this person and yea they love me to but at the same time I can't deal with the fact that for the time being its kinda dead. I feel like his friends who are my friends to like dont like me anymore..or dont want him with me...i donno im all round 100% hurt as anything. Also very confused..I want to be ok.
Im sorry.
I am upset...Im kinda always upset not because of friends or anything but because of on specific person. I love this person 100% with every inch of my body...like do you know how that feels? Yea know its all great and such...But what kills is when this person starts to decline from you the heart aching knife in the stomach everything hurts kind of decline...and you dont know what to do with yourself..heartbreak at its fullest...sucks doesn't it. Maybe this isnt forever maybe its a short period thing...i dont know but what kills is the thoughts...the thoughts that a friend might be trying to get him to meet other girls a thought that Ill lose him forever a thought that kills me. Maybe Im just over reacting. Maybe Im not. Maybe you understand me..and the hurt..I just want to be happy. I want to be ok with everything. I Love this person and yea they love me to but at the same time I can't deal with the fact that for the time being its kinda dead. I feel like his friends who are my friends to like dont like me anymore..or dont want him with me...i donno im all round 100% hurt as anything. Also very confused..I want to be ok.
Im sorry.