March already?
This year is going quickly. And I'm not really doing much with it. Oh, I have plenty of things to do ... but I'm suffering from a total lack of motivation so far. Hell, this post is something I've been meaning to do, and I'm kind of forcing myself to do it.
I feel like I have so many things to do, that it's just easier to not do any of them when I'm confronted by them. This is, of course, the worst way to approach the matter. So, I'm taking a lesson from my days dealing with depression and I'm going to try to apply it to this situation: break things down into small enough chunks that I can handle, and accomplish, at least ONE thing; do that one thing, then move on to the next chunk when I'm ready.
So, what HAVE I accomplished?
-I have been organizing my Alphaville collection.
-I have been posting to vintage_recipes
-I started my newspaper scrapbook. The one I bought when I was blitzed out of my mind on cold syrup at the beginning of the year and went shopping on Amazon.
-I have reconnected with an old friend and performance partner.
So, I've done something. It's not like I've been totally lackadaisical. And this doesn't feel like depression, or even the possible onset of depression- it feels like ennui. Which is totally different although it sees like it's the same. Some of this may be weather related. This winter has been easier than last year, but it's still been a dreary slog.
And my iPod Touch, which is less than a year old, is not what I expected. I'm currently restoring it for the fourth time; I expected it to be more reliable. And each time, it is a PIA to do. Currently, it won't even restore on the main computer; I've had to connect it to my laptop in hopes that it will restore there.
Anyway; back to work and pushing onwards.
I feel like I have so many things to do, that it's just easier to not do any of them when I'm confronted by them. This is, of course, the worst way to approach the matter. So, I'm taking a lesson from my days dealing with depression and I'm going to try to apply it to this situation: break things down into small enough chunks that I can handle, and accomplish, at least ONE thing; do that one thing, then move on to the next chunk when I'm ready.
So, what HAVE I accomplished?
-I have been organizing my Alphaville collection.
-I have been posting to vintage_recipes
-I started my newspaper scrapbook. The one I bought when I was blitzed out of my mind on cold syrup at the beginning of the year and went shopping on Amazon.
-I have reconnected with an old friend and performance partner.
So, I've done something. It's not like I've been totally lackadaisical. And this doesn't feel like depression, or even the possible onset of depression- it feels like ennui. Which is totally different although it sees like it's the same. Some of this may be weather related. This winter has been easier than last year, but it's still been a dreary slog.
And my iPod Touch, which is less than a year old, is not what I expected. I'm currently restoring it for the fourth time; I expected it to be more reliable. And each time, it is a PIA to do. Currently, it won't even restore on the main computer; I've had to connect it to my laptop in hopes that it will restore there.
Anyway; back to work and pushing onwards.