What is wrong with me
What the hell? I was just using a needle to shoot up that I found in the trash! In the fucking trash! It must have been in there for a while, all dirty and used up but I used it anyway, cuz I hate blowing shit up my nose or let's just say it doesn't give me the same effect as it did maybe a few months ago, anymore, so it would be a waste blowing stuff up my nose that's ruined anyhow.
But I mean how stupid can it get? Can I get?! I have zero control over my actions anymore. I get money off the bank that I could use for getting food but I'm spending it all on dope and rather starve to death or something. Just glad I managed to get food for the pets, cause I'd REALLY hate myself for letting them down. On the other hand, I feel like the worst person on earth for doing it to them, they deserve so much better, this ain't no home for anyone. Myself included. It's a fucking rathole, because after I had sold everything there's nothing left in my apartment. Why can't I just STOP?! I'm gonna end up losing everything and being homeless or having to move in with mom and dad again if I continue living this life, I swear.
It can be done tho. JUST STOP! NOW! Somebody, help!
Please..
But I mean how stupid can it get? Can I get?! I have zero control over my actions anymore. I get money off the bank that I could use for getting food but I'm spending it all on dope and rather starve to death or something. Just glad I managed to get food for the pets, cause I'd REALLY hate myself for letting them down. On the other hand, I feel like the worst person on earth for doing it to them, they deserve so much better, this ain't no home for anyone. Myself included. It's a fucking rathole, because after I had sold everything there's nothing left in my apartment. Why can't I just STOP?! I'm gonna end up losing everything and being homeless or having to move in with mom and dad again if I continue living this life, I swear.
It can be done tho. JUST STOP! NOW! Somebody, help!
Please..