when i wake up in my makeup, have you ever felt so used up as this?
so my stint of being on the south beach diet lasted all of two days. oh well. i just love me some carbs.
anyway, im doing a little better in school. i think. well not really but i decided that i have to get it together and do my work. i have just been so lazy and unmotivated. i'm not feeling so happy here in jacksonville. my trip home this weekend was okay, but i get like depressed and then i just dont want to be there or here.
and i hate lying to my parents..i told them i was doing good in school when in actuality, ive dropped a class, got a 45 and a 65 on two math tests. i dont know. i just wish i could get to a point in my life where i feel good about the way things are going. right now i just feel lazy, unattractive, sad, and worried. and i dont like not knowing whats going to happen next. i dont even want to go home for spring break, but i dont really want to stay here. i have to go home though to get my bumper fixed. i just miss have a routine and people telling me what to do, as weird as that sounds. ill figure it out as i go i guess.
<3 sarah
anyway, im doing a little better in school. i think. well not really but i decided that i have to get it together and do my work. i have just been so lazy and unmotivated. i'm not feeling so happy here in jacksonville. my trip home this weekend was okay, but i get like depressed and then i just dont want to be there or here.
and i hate lying to my parents..i told them i was doing good in school when in actuality, ive dropped a class, got a 45 and a 65 on two math tests. i dont know. i just wish i could get to a point in my life where i feel good about the way things are going. right now i just feel lazy, unattractive, sad, and worried. and i dont like not knowing whats going to happen next. i dont even want to go home for spring break, but i dont really want to stay here. i have to go home though to get my bumper fixed. i just miss have a routine and people telling me what to do, as weird as that sounds. ill figure it out as i go i guess.
<3 sarah