Just dropping some flowers of sand.

[outori]

Although I've been meaning to do meaningful things with meaning, meaning for example buying groceries eeteeshe, as my fridge is scarily empty, the heavy, cold rain outside made me change my mind. So in the end, I just sat here the whole day, doing nothing but translating, while being side-tracked ever so gently by youtube. That's what happens with

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[unsraws_bitch]

Oh my goodness, overload new stuff!!!! hehehe

[outori]

It happened during the last twenty minutes of translating, so I stumbled across one and the next aaand the next and so on, hee heeh

[unsraws_bitch]

*nods* yes, my dreams are depressing - and annoying! Don't know why I always fail ... and that panicky sweaty feeling was even worse ...
Honestly: Yes, I'm afraid to make something wrong when I take care of Yudoka, some time. With cats and dogs I never would have any problems, they are familiar to me. But fish? snake? guinea pig/rabbit? urrgghh ...

Ah yeah, luckily Yu-San is a proper guy again, hehe. So he gained weight? Well, you care for him perfectly, ne? Oh, skin-thing coming up again soon, is it??

I usually do not dream of family. When it happens, it's at least strange. But never dreamt of mother/father/sister.

btw - already watched new Nega PV? Deluge? Nice, yeah, really nice *smiles*

[outori]

Mah well, I'm not too much into rodents, or at least not the stupid kind. I really don't have a thing for stupid animals. Or... well. Never met an especially smart and loving guinea pig or rabbit, it's just not my thing. Sadly I wasn't able to admit to that when I had to take care of them -_-

The PV is horrid. ww I mean, it's an amazing PV. Just that I felt a little sick afterwards. Such typical Japanese horror elements - everything's just a game, and you're helpless and, well, die most horribly. Yeapp. Obviously I wouldn't like something like that. But it's a great PV. And they're so pretty.

[unsraws_bitch]

Ahm, yeah, I always knew that you're not much into guinea pigs and stuff. Actually, I can say "dito". See, next memory comes into my mind ... the desperate attempt of giving you animals again ... Andrea's guinea pig & rabbit ... I was not convinced that this would fill this huge gap inside of you, and what was the worst thing to do: nobody actually asked YOU!! Andrea was - as she always is - so full of euphoria and "I am the best person in the world, I sacrifice my beloved animals to you" - how could I thwart her? I know that I felt bad from the beginning, and I felt more than bad when this animals died ... all her unspoken accusations

[outori]

Mmh. I felt horrible about that, myself, and hid behind a teen-wall. I didn't need 'just an animal', I needed a companion, and they just didn't fulfill that for me, sadly. I didn't even click with their personalities. The female guinea pig was a bitch, the male one was a dumb casanova, and the bunny was just being ~there~.
I probably wouldn't have been able to say 'no' to it if I had been asked rather than presented with it all, with no ability to realize what I can or can't do, and no ability to say no.

Hmm... I don't know, I found it worse than Dir PVs. Dir's are so ... surreal that they don't really get that 'close', I think. You don't see men with multiple slimy dicks with heads on them every day, or women biting kids' head off. They're PVs are more like some fantastic nightmare. DELUGE however is quite realistic, that's what I "didn't like" about it.