i know now.
wow. from the help of omar i actually found something very important about me. deep deep inside, i have a "SPONTANEOUS" energy. when i lived in canada, i used to be full of excitement and ready for any adventure. i was wild and could take on any fear. i was a an adrenaline seeker. it was fun. i moved down here and found no one who understood me. no one to be ecstatic with. my dad also didn't let me do the things i was aloud to in canada. it was like he stole the fun out of me. and now i've become this boring person with no personality. this is why i can't wait to move back home and get my life back with the people i love to be around.