life: the subliminal message
reality: i really don't care about a lot of things right now. like school for instance. i mean i still go to every class and do my homework, but the truth is i don't care. I don't care about the class i care about the grade. I'm pretty sure that's a bad thing. Maybe it's because I have to take all these classes I'm not passionate about just to get them out of the way. I'm glad I'm taking journalism because I'm realizing that it is not the path I want to take, although I still say it is to get people off my case. It's taught me a lot, but it is mindless. I don't want to be a drone!! I want to be able to speak my mind.
in my head: i've been thinking thinking thinking a lot. I've been thinking a lot about death. not in a bad way, i've just been really soaking in the reality of it. i'm going to die soon, and so is everyone else. This is the life, the mind and the body you have been given. What am I going to do with mine? We have everything we need to change the world, and I want to take what I have and give what I can. Life is about the future but it's directly determined by what is happening now.
When I ask people how they are and what they've been doing lately and they say "fine" and "nothing" it reminds me of how easy it is to fall into a mundane day-to-day lifestyle until you die. Not that I think everyday should be extreme or anything, I just think that you should take advantage of every moment and appreciate each still frame in the story of your life.