FUUUCK MAD
I swear to god, the ONE time I seem slightly disappointed about money, someone pulls this whole fuckin guilt trip on me and does the whole, "i'm holier than thou because i NEVER complain about money". All I did was get a little pissed becasue my music player filled up, and i have nowhere NEAR all the music i want on it. And yeah, i was like, I wish i could have been sure i was getting fifty dollars for christmas before then so i could have given it to my parents, because the one i wanted was fifty dollars more than they could afford. They could afford to spend 70 dollars on both of us last christmas. AND THATS OKAY. all i said was, "i wish i could have known so that i could have gotten the one i wanted"
it pisses me off because i have never REALLY complained about money like a lot of kids do. I don't mind having been poor most of my life, or that i'm probably going to be rather poor when i grow up, especially now that middle class is thinning. I don't get any allowance, I have to pay for my own things (even vegitarian food, which i agreed with even before my mom decreed it), everything except SOME of my own clothes, and the christmas stuff, and OCCASIONALLY when mom and scott give me money b/c i don't have any when i need to go do things. I've applied to like....more than ten places for work, and haven't been hired. and i don't complain. I don't mind. I LIKE having to be creative with my stuff, but sometimes it'd be nice not to have to make absolutely sure I can make 80 dollars last from april to december. Not being able to go do things with people because it costs too much, and i cant spend that much of my money. Watching my friends get all this really really nice stuff, like cars, the really good music players, really cool clothes, all their gas and such paid for, awesome art supplies like nothing i'll ever have for a loooong time, i even have to pay for most of my college tuition. I don't complain, i don't relaly mind, it's just, someitmes, it'd be nice. To have an allowence, even if it was like, ten dollars a month. Or, i don't know. To not be told i expect too much, or that i'm selfish.
It just REALLY pisses me off that the first time i complain slightly about something, i get told off. I just want to punch someone in the face now.
it pisses me off because i have never REALLY complained about money like a lot of kids do. I don't mind having been poor most of my life, or that i'm probably going to be rather poor when i grow up, especially now that middle class is thinning. I don't get any allowance, I have to pay for my own things (even vegitarian food, which i agreed with even before my mom decreed it), everything except SOME of my own clothes, and the christmas stuff, and OCCASIONALLY when mom and scott give me money b/c i don't have any when i need to go do things. I've applied to like....more than ten places for work, and haven't been hired. and i don't complain. I don't mind. I LIKE having to be creative with my stuff, but sometimes it'd be nice not to have to make absolutely sure I can make 80 dollars last from april to december. Not being able to go do things with people because it costs too much, and i cant spend that much of my money. Watching my friends get all this really really nice stuff, like cars, the really good music players, really cool clothes, all their gas and such paid for, awesome art supplies like nothing i'll ever have for a loooong time, i even have to pay for most of my college tuition. I don't complain, i don't relaly mind, it's just, someitmes, it'd be nice. To have an allowence, even if it was like, ten dollars a month. Or, i don't know. To not be told i expect too much, or that i'm selfish.
It just REALLY pisses me off that the first time i complain slightly about something, i get told off. I just want to punch someone in the face now.