ahh the college life...

[outofcontrol421]

Well Well Well.. ive been up @ school for almost a week now.. and all i have to say is i loveee the college life.. its seriously so nice..it wont be so nice on monday when we start class buttt..lol.. Ive drank the past 5 days and im still going strong..lol.. I honestly dont kno what i would of done if i didnt go away to college b/c it seriously is soo awesome... i miss every1 @ home of course soooo much and wish every1 could be up here it would be awesome...I feel like my sis(heath) is made at me...but i dunno i havent really gotten a chance to talk to her but the one night i did i feel like she didnt wanan talk soo i dunno whats going on..but i love u sis and miss u :-/ I was looking @ my prague picture thingy and it like made me cry.. I miss skating with my girls/my girls period and skating period.. the trips were amazing and i for sure took it for advantage.. at the time it wasnt a big deal b/c i was so used to traveling and getting to exeperience all that stuff. I didnt think id miss it as much this year becuz i havent skated in a year and everything but looking back makes me miss it so much.. but then i realize ill never get to skate with the same group of people with the same coach so it wouldnt even end up being the same..cant believe something i did for 12 years of my life and pretty much consumed all of my life is alll over.. ugh ill get over it but it still makes me sad :-/ but im glad that i still feel close some of the peopel i skated with...but newayz.. i think this past week ive made more friends here then i did the whole year last yr..hahaha.. we really werent a friendly group of girls and we liked to stick together..just us mainly..and like every weekend people would ocme up from home so we'd just party in the dorms... but im ready to meet new people for sure..i miss josh being here tho and chris jut has been acting really weird butt whatever.. i think we r going up to ferris state in like 3 weeks i dunno soo ill get to see josh!! I reallyyy need a job and it really sucks feeling poor again.. soo hopefully something will work out cuz I NEEED oneeeeee!! I havent had a full day to recover from drinking and so everytime i go to drink again im still hung over..i dont think thats a good idea and im sure im killing my body this weeek but its welcome week sooo i gotta sacrafice.. i wasnt going to come home next weekend for labor day cuz i just really love my apartment and being up here butttt the nice girl i am is going home for Des... but i might go to u of m on friday..havent decided but i miss my julius soo very much and i really wish we went to the same college cuz it would be sooo crazyyyy!!!!!! ahhh.. thats y im so happy i have a car soo i can go where ever whenever...well unless if imstill poor then i wont b able to afford the gas and yea...i keep getting pains in ym chest by my heart and i dont think thats a good thing and it makes me nervous but im too scared to go to the doctors asoo i dunno what im going to do about this problem.well this entry really sucked but honestly i dont think im completly sobered up and im just real tired cuz ive recieved noooo sleep all week!!!! I feel bad becuz i havent hung out with my roomates yet and i wanna hang out with my friends and Grace and Linsday also ugh.. i hope it all works out cuz i for sure wanna get close with my roomates and everything but Anna isnt even going to b here until Sundayy soo i dunno.. i kno everything will work out but u kno im such a stressful person!!! ok but im out.. getting ready for day 6 of drinking and partying it up :-D

I MISS AND LOVE EVERY1 AT HOME!!!! come visit me soon!!!!!

Aman ur a whore and u really should of come to western ur first yr and not waited but ur a whore like i said soo i guess ull just whore urself around home for a lil longer...

alright peace outttttt

love you
<3 Ash