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update...
junior year has started and its going to be a tough stressful year....but i just think that a part of me is missing....a part that won't come back....
once i had moved from ny to fl i thought that i might be a good experience...a new high school...new people but I feel like this is when i need them the most. Junior year is suppose to be the toughest year there is..I always thought that me and my friends in ob would make it through high school together. I remeber in 7th grade at orientation we were all sitting in the auditorium going...we will make it through together...were the babies in the high school...everything looks so big. Everything had changed. People were hanging out with other people...people hooking up....going out...I remember i was the one who was friends with all of the 'cliques' i wasn't apart of one special group. At the 8th grade ceremony I remeber when they had called my name so i could recieve my certificate and all i could think about was is this is end.....what's going to happen now.....i'm moving away from the people i had known since pre-k. Now that I look back on this i recall all the memories that I have had and who my true friends are....the ones that still IM me to talk about things....the ones that jsut start up a converstaion feeling like I had never left...then there are the others...that try to make me feel better...who tried to be my friend and never talked to me....there the fake ones that i dislike....I guess the point that I am trying to make is that even though I am 1900 miles away from you all I still want to know what's going on....I think about you all all the time and I miss you all horribly and I am upset that I can't see you guys every weekend....I miss hearing from you all and I've grown up with you all and were going off to college in 2 years and I feel like if I don't hear from you all anymore than I kinda of don't have a past...that all my memories will be shattered because the people i care so much about and who are a big part of my life I don't hear from....so please don't be afraid that if your having a nervous breakdown or need to call someone just to talk i am always here....even an e-mail IM or letter....I don't want to lose you guys...were all so close since were such a small class....i feel like im losing you all and it bugs me everyday.... love you guys....i just had to get this out