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...Well today i woke up and went over franks house like usually do, and there i was talking to jen and about what happened with us and the cops and i started to get really sad. i thought about that night and what i could have done or not have done and there is things that i would have changed.
later in the day kevin came over and we decided to go to ocean city for some fun befre me and kevin went to work. when we got there we rode from 9th to 32nd where harrison matt and a two guys that i didnt know but they did were in there house so we chilled there for a little bit and watched a movie type thing of flatland (they all rode flatland. then we rode back until we got to 8th and rode under supperfresh...there parking lot is under the store and it was the coolest there and out of the sun. The one guy was really quite and the other one was more interactive with me and talked me to me and listened to what everyone was talking about. some how they all got to picking on me which didnt bother me because it wasnt anything that they ment but they some how were talking about riding naked then dick and something like that and the one guy was like yeah im going to stop talking because hse might know more then me about them and i didnt like that to much since he just met me but oh well shit happens. me and kevin had to leave becaus he had work at 430 and i have work at 5. on our way home we were behind so many slow driving people. i hate people that drive soo so slow! as franks mom says "dont they want to get where there going"....then we got home and i was off to work yay ::sigh::
On our way home we picked up jenna and thats always a tripp...tonight i got really upset and depressed for a while and i dotn really know why all i know is that i wanted to talk to keith so bad and i wanted it to be a good conversation but since jenna and kevin were in my room he got intrested in something else and then was watching a movie and i was tring to talk to him...i was so mad that i left them in my room and went downstairs in my basement so i could be alone. i wanted to talk to him so bad. i feel like i havent really had a good conversation with him for a while he has been watching tv or a movie and i dont want to reall interrupt him when hes doing that and when we do talk i wait so long i dont even really know what to talk about and i say stupid things tring to get him to talk me to be but it doesnt always work. i want him to love me and to want to be with me. i want him to want to hold me and lay with me...just thinking about it gets me to the point where im fighting not to cry but i cant help it imk just so sad tonight. i want to have him sleeping next to me in my bed with his arm around me and my head on his chest humm i cant have what i want
later in the day kevin came over and we decided to go to ocean city for some fun befre me and kevin went to work. when we got there we rode from 9th to 32nd where harrison matt and a two guys that i didnt know but they did were in there house so we chilled there for a little bit and watched a movie type thing of flatland (they all rode flatland. then we rode back until we got to 8th and rode under supperfresh...there parking lot is under the store and it was the coolest there and out of the sun. The one guy was really quite and the other one was more interactive with me and talked me to me and listened to what everyone was talking about. some how they all got to picking on me which didnt bother me because it wasnt anything that they ment but they some how were talking about riding naked then dick and something like that and the one guy was like yeah im going to stop talking because hse might know more then me about them and i didnt like that to much since he just met me but oh well shit happens. me and kevin had to leave becaus he had work at 430 and i have work at 5. on our way home we were behind so many slow driving people. i hate people that drive soo so slow! as franks mom says "dont they want to get where there going"....then we got home and i was off to work yay ::sigh::
On our way home we picked up jenna and thats always a tripp...tonight i got really upset and depressed for a while and i dotn really know why all i know is that i wanted to talk to keith so bad and i wanted it to be a good conversation but since jenna and kevin were in my room he got intrested in something else and then was watching a movie and i was tring to talk to him...i was so mad that i left them in my room and went downstairs in my basement so i could be alone. i wanted to talk to him so bad. i feel like i havent really had a good conversation with him for a while he has been watching tv or a movie and i dont want to reall interrupt him when hes doing that and when we do talk i wait so long i dont even really know what to talk about and i say stupid things tring to get him to talk me to be but it doesnt always work. i want him to love me and to want to be with me. i want him to want to hold me and lay with me...just thinking about it gets me to the point where im fighting not to cry but i cant help it imk just so sad tonight. i want to have him sleeping next to me in my bed with his arm around me and my head on his chest humm i cant have what i want