"you think of a wonderful thought!" "any happy little though?" "uh huh!"
weird. ive been in the BEST of moods for .. about two weeks now. its excellent. i went from being sad sad sad to ... one day i think i just lost it and laughed at EVERYTHING. someone would be talking to me and i would just SMILE and laugh and it was amazing. ever since, i've been happy. it worked out well because i made a new friend who may not have been nearly as likely to speak to me had i not been so pleasant and charming. but i guess that goes all the time.
i'm really happy with school.
i've been losing weight.
i've been eating lots of sushi.
ok change of tone now:
i just read this. i feel so far behind for not knowing. i feel like there's so much i need to know.
http://www.vietnamwar.com/mylai.htm
i'm glad i know about it... 700 years later... i just came from a journalism class and we watched Hijacking Catastrophe which is all about september 11th and how the media and govt have kept shit from us and that journalism is very one sided. basically, it was exactly like EVERY other documentary on 9/11.
but after watching it, it is hard to differentiate between the people who attacked us on 9/11 and the people who bombed Iraq in the Shock and Awe attack. Its bullshit. i think terrorists should be defined as people who instill fear to the point of inflicting pain and causing deaths, with absolutely no idea how people feel.
Fuck the whole "do unto others" bullshit. we've got fucking soulless assholes on both sides. do not bomb someone's town to 'scare them'. you dont do shit like that to scare people. no, anyone who blows up someones home is seeking to harm. some people say "do unto others?" well, i'd die for MY country, so if they die because of this, its their way of dying for THEIR country. no. no you are mentally challanged if you ACTUALLY think this. Pride vs stupidity. you can feel pride for your country without out dying for its mistakes. so dont do unto others as you would have them do unto you. there are far too many negligant people out there. there are sadists. masochists. and some people who are plain old fucked up. we dont need them to take their beliefs out on us.
we are not taught about religion or pride or any of these things so that we can take our beliefs out on someone. its not like stress. belief should not cause pain to anyone. even your enemies.
Try "harm none". that covers all bases. do not hurt anyone. not emotionally, not physically, not verbally, not at all. this includes each person's own self. leave yourself alone. leave your enemies alone.
i just feel like a lot of people are doing this whole "living" thing all wrong. its about enjoying the person you are, the people you know and the places you go. it shouldnt be about putting people down to bring yourself up. it should be about making sure you're ok, keeping yourself happy inside yourself, then sharing that happiness with people who will accept your happiness and love.
"how very flowerchild of you, taylor" i know. i sound like a pansy. but why? because i want people to be happy and treat each other well? i also get annoyed with people who are stupid or who just may not like me.. i just disregard them. i dont take my anger out on anyone. i write. or i cry. or i mull it over, in my own silence and get myself over it. its not necessary for me to be miserable just because everyone else is.
although it does seem that good things happen to me just as things turn sour for everyone around me.
i'm just so happy. lucky. and i let myself be.
no one else lets themselves be ok.
just put a little effort in being happy. eat your favorite food often. drink lots of water. take vitamin D. meet someone new who makes you giddy-nervous even though you are extremely comfortable with them. sing loud. rearrange your room. chop off all your hair. dye your hair. paint your nails, then pick at them ALL week as the paint slowly chips off. and listen to good music. dance a little bit.
its so easy.
be happy.
i'm really happy with school.
i've been losing weight.
i've been eating lots of sushi.
ok change of tone now:
i just read this. i feel so far behind for not knowing. i feel like there's so much i need to know.
http://www.vietnamwar.com/mylai.htm
i'm glad i know about it... 700 years later... i just came from a journalism class and we watched Hijacking Catastrophe which is all about september 11th and how the media and govt have kept shit from us and that journalism is very one sided. basically, it was exactly like EVERY other documentary on 9/11.
but after watching it, it is hard to differentiate between the people who attacked us on 9/11 and the people who bombed Iraq in the Shock and Awe attack. Its bullshit. i think terrorists should be defined as people who instill fear to the point of inflicting pain and causing deaths, with absolutely no idea how people feel.
Fuck the whole "do unto others" bullshit. we've got fucking soulless assholes on both sides. do not bomb someone's town to 'scare them'. you dont do shit like that to scare people. no, anyone who blows up someones home is seeking to harm. some people say "do unto others?" well, i'd die for MY country, so if they die because of this, its their way of dying for THEIR country. no. no you are mentally challanged if you ACTUALLY think this. Pride vs stupidity. you can feel pride for your country without out dying for its mistakes. so dont do unto others as you would have them do unto you. there are far too many negligant people out there. there are sadists. masochists. and some people who are plain old fucked up. we dont need them to take their beliefs out on us.
we are not taught about religion or pride or any of these things so that we can take our beliefs out on someone. its not like stress. belief should not cause pain to anyone. even your enemies.
Try "harm none". that covers all bases. do not hurt anyone. not emotionally, not physically, not verbally, not at all. this includes each person's own self. leave yourself alone. leave your enemies alone.
i just feel like a lot of people are doing this whole "living" thing all wrong. its about enjoying the person you are, the people you know and the places you go. it shouldnt be about putting people down to bring yourself up. it should be about making sure you're ok, keeping yourself happy inside yourself, then sharing that happiness with people who will accept your happiness and love.
"how very flowerchild of you, taylor" i know. i sound like a pansy. but why? because i want people to be happy and treat each other well? i also get annoyed with people who are stupid or who just may not like me.. i just disregard them. i dont take my anger out on anyone. i write. or i cry. or i mull it over, in my own silence and get myself over it. its not necessary for me to be miserable just because everyone else is.
although it does seem that good things happen to me just as things turn sour for everyone around me.
i'm just so happy. lucky. and i let myself be.
no one else lets themselves be ok.
just put a little effort in being happy. eat your favorite food often. drink lots of water. take vitamin D. meet someone new who makes you giddy-nervous even though you are extremely comfortable with them. sing loud. rearrange your room. chop off all your hair. dye your hair. paint your nails, then pick at them ALL week as the paint slowly chips off. and listen to good music. dance a little bit.
its so easy.
be happy.