havent updated in a few days...
it's been a really irritating couple of days. I finally found out why Lee didnt show up for our date, and hasnt called or anything since. Brandon, this guy I dated for like a week a few months ago, found out I was gonna go out with Lee and he lied and told Kylie that Lee was like stalking me cause he thought I liked him (which really isnt true..the stalking part) and so Kylie agreed to call Lee and pretend to be me and leave him a message on his machine that would sound really mean and rude and just horrible, so he would stop liking me, cause she believed Brandon. And I'm not mad at her cause she thought she was just helping me out. Although I really wish people would quit trying to "help" me out without my knowledge. But she called and left the messege and god, it was terrible, I listened to it about an hour ago, when I was over at Lee's, if someone I really cared about left me a message like that it would have like just broken my heart. So now I know why he was acting like he was. But I didnt find all this out till too late. Cause earlier I went over to Lee's without knowing anything about what Kylie and Brandon did, and I blew up at Lee for stanging me up and not even calling and then I guess everything just pushed him too far cause he started saying stuff back and finally he said something like he couldnt believe I was so messed up to leave a message like that and then wonder why he didnt show up. Then he walked out...of his own apartment..which was weird cause I was left standing in his living room, like "WTF do I do now?" cause if he had walked out on me at my house or in my car or somthing I wouldve gone up in my room or driven someplace or turned on the tv or something. but instead I stood there, then checked his machine to see if the message was there and I heard it, and I left, cause I could tell it was Kylie, we sound just a like but I knew i didnt leave the message so I knew it was her. GOD I FEEL HORRIBLE NOW. Even though I didnt leave the message, just the fact that he thinks I did, makes me feel bad. I tried calling him but he never called back. So here I am. But it just goes to show that I was right about relationships. They're not worth it to me, and this proves it. I gave it a shot and look wtf happened. Never again. I am never getting close to someone like that again. I mean if its this complicated and we havent even gone on one date yet, how would it be a week into it or a month into the relationship???
Other than this whole drama the last few days have been alright. I mowed the yard yesterday, and I'm going shopping and then im gonna wash my moms car tomorrow. So yeah its been......okay nope its still been an awful few days.
*~lyric of the moment~*
My world was shattered I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart
You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darling then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong I know that I was blind
Other than this whole drama the last few days have been alright. I mowed the yard yesterday, and I'm going shopping and then im gonna wash my moms car tomorrow. So yeah its been......okay nope its still been an awful few days.
*~lyric of the moment~*
My world was shattered I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart
You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darling then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong I know that I was blind