So kiss me hard 'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
It’s been a long, tiring weekend. I miss the summer so much, and everything that it represents. Happiness, sunshine, warm summer rains, being with your friends every night, no pressure. This past summer was the best summer of my life. The last year before I have responsibilities. The last summer before I never see my friends. Sure I’ll see them this summer, but it won’t be the same. It’ll be a long overdue goodbye. Even now I feel like my friends are leaving tomorrow to go to college. I feel like everyone is leaving me even though I know that’s not true. I’m the one who’s applying to colleges that are hours away. I think I just having a major peter pan complex. I mean at times I want to grow up in a day and know who I’m going to marry and how my life is going to be…what my kids look like. Then other times…I don’t want to grow up at all. I want to go back to the days where I was completely innocent in everything that I did. Oh well what can you do…
So Friday I basically got kicked out of my house for the night because my mom and I had a huge fight and then I popped my tire and ended up crying for 3 hours..lol. then yesterday I went to my cousins house and I slept over there and so that takes us to today and today was just a laid back kind of day. I filled out some applications…got that out of the way.
I wish I could talk to Aiden more. I wish I could make time to talk to him. I never talk to him anymore…I don’t know. I’m glad he had fun at the dance.
We got our Christmas tree today…
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull,
these hearts they race, from self control.
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine,
we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted; just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions. "hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together. The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it, and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it. And I knew that you meant it.
So long sweet summer, I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays.
So long sweet slumber. I fell into you now you're gracefully falling away.
Hey thanks, thanks for that summer. It is cold where your going
I hope that your heart is always warm. I gave you the best that I had.
You passed on my letters & passed on the best that I had.
I hate the winter in Lexington.
I'm missing your bed, I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.
I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
You're not alone and you're not discreet.
You make sure I know, who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again.
There is not a word that I comprehend,
except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever"
As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
and sit alone and wonder how you're making out
But as for me I wish that I was anywhere
With anyone making out
I'm missing your laugh, how did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as your pretending.
I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to sleep.
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.
Your hair it's everywhere
Screaming infidelities taking it's wear