Oct 05, 2005 20:02
I have a great best friend. I LOVE LOVE LOVE her. She is my life. Without her, I would kill myself.
And I'm losing her.
Background: Ariel, my best friend, used to be best friends with this girl, Brandy. Brandy got a boyfriend. Brandys boyfriend told her to never talk to Ariel again. So she listened. Ariel and I became best friends just over a year ago, and we've spent every weekend together since last October. Ariel, and all of her friends hated Brandy.
NOW Brandys boyfriend dumped her. So, she expects all of her old friends back. And she's doing whatever it takes to get Ariel back. She even started smoking pot, and she EVEN HAD SEX WITH A GUY FOR FREE POT BECAUSE SHE KNEW ARIEL WOULD COME OVER. Ariel and Brandy hang out now, but Ariel says she hates it, but I can tell she doesn't. She LOVES it. I can tell. She gets all happy when she sees her and invites her over, even when I'm there! Also, Ariels been a BEYOTCH to me lately. She doesn't laugh at my jokes, calls me stupid, retarded, etc., and ignores my calls/doesn't call me back. She also suggested we don't hang out on Friday night. If I don't go on Friday, she'll be with Brandy. We always spend Friday and Saturday night together. Now I feel like I'm losing my best friend. There's always awkward silence and just a weird feeling. I don't feel like she loves me anymore. What do I do? I CAN'T lose her. I'll have nothing. At all. What would you do? How can I tell her this? She'll just tell me I'm being stupid and it's all in my head, and make me feel worse.
I feel like shit.
I am so stressed out. Nothing good is happening, I'm losing everything I had and I'm losing myself.