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I don't want December to happen. I don't want Christmas to come. My Christmas is going to fucking suck. It's already been ruined. I've always looked forward to it, but I'd give anything to have that entire month and everything that goes along with it gone. I have this constant anxiety because I know, but at the same time I don't really know. December is such a great month to become a shadow, to become the back ground, to become nothing and fade into second best and I just can't stand the anticipation of what happens nexts and how will this change things.