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sorry world for existing.
i'm a mess up, i seriously am. i can never be happy & once when i am the least bit happy i find some way to mess it up. its true. i finally think i found something that i want & i literally almost messed it up. i think im going to end things with dan but im not sure. i have time to think & all but its just so complicated. i dont mean to sound all pathetic and like complaining about my life, its not what im intending on doing so forgive me if i seem that way. eh whatever. anyhow, today i had work until 6, figured its 4th of july it would be all slow but no it was so crowded. then i received a phone call from samira & she came over. my parents had a bbq so samira & i hung out with these two twins michael and john. it was fun. now samira is sleeping over. well, pzzzz.
& heres mike. (i took these pictures from your journal, mike)
this gaping hole in my chest is filled with deceit.
i fear that all my cries fell upon deaf ears.
i caress flesh with severed nerves.
i go veiled in darkness and disease.
this November swallows me whole.
and this may be the closest thing that
you'll ever receive to an apology.
i'm a mess up, i seriously am. i can never be happy & once when i am the least bit happy i find some way to mess it up. its true. i finally think i found something that i want & i literally almost messed it up. i think im going to end things with dan but im not sure. i have time to think & all but its just so complicated. i dont mean to sound all pathetic and like complaining about my life, its not what im intending on doing so forgive me if i seem that way. eh whatever. anyhow, today i had work until 6, figured its 4th of july it would be all slow but no it was so crowded. then i received a phone call from samira & she came over. my parents had a bbq so samira & i hung out with these two twins michael and john. it was fun. now samira is sleeping over. well, pzzzz.
& heres mike. (i took these pictures from your journal, mike)
this gaping hole in my chest is filled with deceit.
i fear that all my cries fell upon deaf ears.
i caress flesh with severed nerves.
i go veiled in darkness and disease.
this November swallows me whole.
and this may be the closest thing that
you'll ever receive to an apology.