Kill all your friends
So it has been awhile since I write anything really, journal, poems, anything. Fox has been gone 48 days and its weird. I get letter has from him, and I miss him so much more... if that is even possible. I am a irritated that his divorce has not started. Dimples went and got her military ID and I admit I a was hit with a tinge of Jealously. Fox says it doesn't matter we love each other and yes that is true but I would really like to reap the benefits of this. I don't think its selfish but maybe it is. I honestly have grown to love Dimples and I love that Baby with all my heart. I just cannot wait for the day Fox finally asks me to Marry him... I want that. I want to hear him ask.
As far as playing while he's away, I have twice, with Phil and Jr. Jr reminds me of fox, only Taller and darker... thats probably why I am attracted to him. He could never replace my baby though. I am hoping where Fox is at it will help him think a bit clearer, because with this new career they are new pressures and images to follow. Time will only tell.
Spent the past few days with Dimples and Baby, I have no idea how I can love somebody so much that isn't mine, I would die for him. He cries when I leave, and oh it kills me. While being there, i cut off ties with my group, it was a unanimous vote, it was hard but I am no longer apart of their lives as they are no longer about of mine. I will always love them and remember the good stuff, but that life is not for me anymore. I have my pictures and memories thats is good enough. Maybe we will meet again, but only time will tell. Well I am off to eat something yummy... and mail Fox his letter.
As far as playing while he's away, I have twice, with Phil and Jr. Jr reminds me of fox, only Taller and darker... thats probably why I am attracted to him. He could never replace my baby though. I am hoping where Fox is at it will help him think a bit clearer, because with this new career they are new pressures and images to follow. Time will only tell.
Spent the past few days with Dimples and Baby, I have no idea how I can love somebody so much that isn't mine, I would die for him. He cries when I leave, and oh it kills me. While being there, i cut off ties with my group, it was a unanimous vote, it was hard but I am no longer apart of their lives as they are no longer about of mine. I will always love them and remember the good stuff, but that life is not for me anymore. I have my pictures and memories thats is good enough. Maybe we will meet again, but only time will tell. Well I am off to eat something yummy... and mail Fox his letter.