________ girl.

[ourdemise]

i am sick and tired of being put in positions where i have to value my reputation (and by reputation i mean other peoples' opinions) over my own instincts. for once i'd like to be able to secretly make a mistake and just enjoy it, rather than watching it explode all over my neatly (un)planned life. bad decisions feel the best for a reason. resist=regret.
but just to be clear: i will never give up the things that i love for someone that might one day stop loving me. get it now?
i don't want to bore you, but here i go again.