tomorrow i'll be you
i promised myself i'd be in bed at 9. hahah. i didn't do my math homework either. i hate school. i hate myself for hating school. blah. procrastination is my middle name. well, actually it's jarman. but whatever. today wasn't exactly a high note in my life. started crying in comp & rhet and swore enough for every student at cedar falls high school. i make me mad. i deserve the crappy grade i'm going to get though. mmm...let's see how bitter i can be? wait, no. staring out my window seems all too tempting right now. cj stop being an idiot. deep breath. i haven't been stupid like this in a while, somebody should be sitting next to me so they can slap me right now. heh, i could slap myself...umm, no. it's not as effective.
i hung out wiht my mom like all night. they were fun times. i like her. i have to go out to eat with my dad tomorrow night, weird, that i have to set up times to be with my parents now. i guess i never really realized that my parents weren't together anymore. and i finally can connect with the majority of my friends about the divorced parents thing. although mine aren't exactly divorced yet. they're stupid, that's what they are. i like them, though. kind of like how i'm stupid, but Jesus still loves me. except way different, because i'm not like Jesus in any way shape or form. hahah! that's a band. i want to buy their cd, cause they're my friends.
i leave for new york at 5pm on friday. i'm really scared.
i love you.
cj
i hung out wiht my mom like all night. they were fun times. i like her. i have to go out to eat with my dad tomorrow night, weird, that i have to set up times to be with my parents now. i guess i never really realized that my parents weren't together anymore. and i finally can connect with the majority of my friends about the divorced parents thing. although mine aren't exactly divorced yet. they're stupid, that's what they are. i like them, though. kind of like how i'm stupid, but Jesus still loves me. except way different, because i'm not like Jesus in any way shape or form. hahah! that's a band. i want to buy their cd, cause they're my friends.
i leave for new york at 5pm on friday. i'm really scared.
i love you.
cj