Feeling okay with leading a double life?

[leolapyre]

Does anyone here lead a "double life" and have no intention of ever coming out to certain people? I have one identity that I use with my family and at work and another that I use with close friends and people I can I feel I can trust. To my surprise, it hasn't been all that bad leading a double life. As long as I can keep my temptation to go on

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[apple_peelings]

I'm pretty much where jump_zinc is, and don't feel dysphoric per se, but recently discovered I'm in many ways a lot happier when people accept me as male. Difficult in some ways because I'm not necessarily sure I want to try and 'live as a man' because I'm not really comfortable with that stereotyping, and after being very unhappy as a woman for a while, and very actively conditioning myself to enjoy the advantages I could find, I do now genuinely enjoy many aspects of being a guy with a girl body, and I'm not keen on messing with my head again trying to undo my self-programming when I'm not unhappy as I am. I think largely because most people don't seem to see my gender as a part of my identity, and seem in some ways to apply guy rules to me without thinking, which I think wouldn't necessarily be the case if they were consciously trying to respect my gender. It's a puzzle, and I can see myself wanting to properly transition when I'm older, but for now happy to only be out where it'll be accepted without my having to fight for it. Not sure I'm necessarily ethically comfortable with that, but it's how it is at the moment.