CHASE ME, CHASE ME, CHASE ME.
Honestly This past month i have felt so much better about myself and i have felt acomplished and older and like im getting sumwhere in life, slowly but i am. It maybe the longest yard. But Im ready for this run. To me It felt like i was actully showing my family i can be someone. That Im try'n and im not the same person i was a year ago. I dont do drugs, yeah i drink, I dont party all the fucking time altho i did this summer :) I thought the comparison of me and my cousin was over. But i guess not. Today they explained that she is saveing for a car, gives gas money to her mom and buys food for the house. and they expect me to do the same. I would dont get me wrong.. i am saveing and i do give gas but im not amamnda and i dont make 8$ an hour. i make 6 and thats shit. i work as much and as long as i can, i come home clean and help out and sleep. I hardly go out. and when i do deside to go out they yell and bitch at me b/c " I have work in the morning" I hate it here and everytime i try and show them i can be a better person they beak me down again. I can never win even if i try.
This Past week and a 1/2 all i can think of is makeing out and cuddling. Like its getting so bad when i see guys walkin at work and there hot i think to myself, " he could be a good kisser or ew he would nto even know what to do" how pathetic.
I just want a guy for me, to love me and help me. I mean i cant give him much. I can give him all i got. My eyes, ears, heart and soal. I can give him my hand when he needs sumone near, my eyes so he can look in them and see me for me. My ears so when he needs someone to talk to or have sumone listen, im there. My heart for him to hold, and my soal for him to know im his. but HA thats the longest yard right there.. never gonna happen.
well im done bitching, im out. I GOT MONDAY AND TUESDAY OFF. ! ;-)
This Past week and a 1/2 all i can think of is makeing out and cuddling. Like its getting so bad when i see guys walkin at work and there hot i think to myself, " he could be a good kisser or ew he would nto even know what to do" how pathetic.
I just want a guy for me, to love me and help me. I mean i cant give him much. I can give him all i got. My eyes, ears, heart and soal. I can give him my hand when he needs sumone near, my eyes so he can look in them and see me for me. My ears so when he needs someone to talk to or have sumone listen, im there. My heart for him to hold, and my soal for him to know im his. but HA thats the longest yard right there.. never gonna happen.
well im done bitching, im out. I GOT MONDAY AND TUESDAY OFF. ! ;-)