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I've been messing things up here at work all week. It's like my brain is offline and I'm just wandering through the world in a fog.
Last night I was in SecondLife, I was playing in the Star Wars sim last night and was invited to hang out and watch The Fifth Element with everyone. But when I sat down and started watching... all I could think about was Gretchen's ringtone. And how she loved this movie and how we would sing the opera from it off key to each other.
I had to just leave.
I feel like I was handling everything. Like I was on the edge of being ok. But now everytime there is silence my heart begins to ache and I just stare ahead. Missing her. Feeling the press of time without her.
I know that it was God's will. And I take some comfort in that. But I'm still so upset for all of us that have to live without her.
I just don't know what to do with my head.
Last night I was in SecondLife, I was playing in the Star Wars sim last night and was invited to hang out and watch The Fifth Element with everyone. But when I sat down and started watching... all I could think about was Gretchen's ringtone. And how she loved this movie and how we would sing the opera from it off key to each other.
I had to just leave.
I feel like I was handling everything. Like I was on the edge of being ok. But now everytime there is silence my heart begins to ache and I just stare ahead. Missing her. Feeling the press of time without her.
I know that it was God's will. And I take some comfort in that. But I'm still so upset for all of us that have to live without her.
I just don't know what to do with my head.