Aug 30, 2006 01:28
My eyes fall to see a tattered pair of jeans and an ignored text message. A $1 necklace and an old cd. The cord to a broken ipod and a sore heart. This idea of settling plagues my mind. Am I such a creature that is unable to love? I wonder if I could ever return a boys feelings. I wonder if it is possible to release the past. I am shamed that I still desire affection. Can I not live without it? Who am I to demand someone greater? Oh how I live in the what-ifs. In the ideals of nights that never happened. I guess Im just wondering if I will ever be that girl. Different. Worthy. Beautiful.