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[oughtobedoinghw]

never let friends play matchmaker

I guess its been a while since I've been on the recieving end of a dump. I guess it reminds me to be careful with other people. I dont even think I would be feeling bad now if it were me who had done it. It was just so unexpected.

That touches upon another thing.

kill hope

or at least expectations

wow I dont want to sound emo because I think this happening was a good lesson for me. I need to be gentler with people and not get too excited over potential relationships.

I also want to not notice beautiful people or have anyone notice me because of my physical exterior.

I just wish that we were all blind.. but I guess we would then find a different way to judge people, like how our voices sound or something. Right now I want to destroy the word "I" because I feel like me focusing on myself is what is bringing me so much trouble in the first place.

I suppose Im fighting with reality.
welp I know the future still has good in store for me.. I guess that contradicts the first statement of "kill hope"