Oy.

[ouchmytoe]

So i am home... once again
its in someways relaxing and in others stressfull.
they moved a major road while i was gone... thats about all that has changed
we also have fall here which i have not yet seen in chicago
im just feeling very bleh about things right now
i love chicago
i hate that school
i love my friends here
i hate this town
i dont want to write anymore fucking papers and go to anymore random musems to write random papers
i want to do art
i went to a friends house last night who goes to the art institute here,
apperently she paints and draws!
we dont do that
we conceptualize
and stick our feet in paint
its all about the idea
im running out of fucking ideas
i just want to draw a damn still life goddammit
ive been trying to do some art on my own but i can never find the time
too many research feild trips
too many papers to write
i thought josh was going to be here this weekend
but hes not
cory is still asleep
and there is really nobody else i want to see
i have alot of free time now and no real distractions
my parents are gone
my friends are gone
its just me and my tv
i think im just going to go to arabica and read until someone calls
take my mind off of things
i actually cant wait to get back to the city at this point
atleast there are distractions all over the place
here
there is nothing
bleh
love
amanda