I get it now

[otwm]

This entire thing, this entire life, this entire choice of mine. i get it. i finally get it. it's not about me just making movies,it's about me making movies. i know that doesn't make sense but it will by the end of this i hope. Throughout my entire time before right now, i have looked at this choice of mine as a huge fucking deal. it is a huge fucking deal. it's the kind of deal that overshadows the rest of my life, and until this point it has cast a shadow over me. there's been this nagging feeling at the back of my head saying i couldn't do it, it's too big, the industry is too unforgiving. From the amount of coincidence i have encountered in the past...while, i have come to realize that this hasn't been just a choice i made: it's been inevitability. You cannot look at what has come together and the people i've met and the sheer exeriences i've had and say to me that this is just a chance happening.

I may not make it big. I don't want to make it big. I want to make good films. I want to make the kind of thing that will inspire someone about some thing, about anything.

Now is never the time for me to sit down. I can't get discouraged...and as corny as this may all sound to someone who isn't me. I won't get discouraged.

And this is for anyone that is ever interested in any film position or who has any ideas: www.ssp.giorgioland.com

anyway
i think i might use this as a journal of sorts...it seems only right as this is...a journal...
done for now