but why?
There are a lot of things that I am not understanding right now.. I just don't know what to do anymore.I just don't even know what to say, it's like whatever i do can never be good enough... so what's the point in even trying? I just feel like this whole summer i have done everything that i thought i never would do, or even ever wanted to do. I've just become the oppostite of what i always thought i would be... what am i supposed to do now???? Start over, or just keep turning into someone i have always dreaded becoming?? Sometimes I just wonder, what's the fricken point? It is way to hard to please everyone and i obviously suck at doing that...so here i am, again, confused and alone. I suppose that i am essentialy not alone, but i just feel like no one understands me right now. I just can't be the person that i am expected to be. I GIVE UP! Can't you understand that maybe i can't be everything you thought i would be? Sorry to disappoint you, once again, maybe you will realize that i'm not what you want.
*I don't believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for god sake could you try
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you wanna be mine
Where is your heart
Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what I need
I Want your heart to bleed
Thats all I'm asking for *