another rant to be taken lightly and out of only the bad context
i feel so sick to my stomach right now...
i have been so confused about everything lately...
things with me and Lyssa keep going back and forth and just now, i read something in her LJ that highly disturbed me. i dont really know as far as joking goes but there are some things that boyfriends shouldnt see their girlfriends say to other guys. whats fucked up is she knows something like that would bother me and that im gonna see it so what was the fucking point?
i'm not saying that to exploit her as a bad person. rather to say that i had so much love built up for her but im tired of waiting for her to tell me wether or not she still wants to be with me. sometimes i dont want to fuck with it but i know i must be waiting for a reason.
or maybe i just fucking suck at relationships...
i have been so confused about everything lately...
things with me and Lyssa keep going back and forth and just now, i read something in her LJ that highly disturbed me. i dont really know as far as joking goes but there are some things that boyfriends shouldnt see their girlfriends say to other guys. whats fucked up is she knows something like that would bother me and that im gonna see it so what was the fucking point?
i'm not saying that to exploit her as a bad person. rather to say that i had so much love built up for her but im tired of waiting for her to tell me wether or not she still wants to be with me. sometimes i dont want to fuck with it but i know i must be waiting for a reason.
or maybe i just fucking suck at relationships...