Heart and Mind...
So, the stomach is still bothering me. It's a bit less painful today, but it seems to hurt me more at night, and how convenient that it hurts before I go to sleep at night, and can't sleep at all. I guess one of the best comforts for me is the fact that when I wake up in the middle of the night and my stomach is killing me, I can look over and see my boyfriend right there, and wrap my arms around him and feel comforted. Or if my back is to him while sleeping, he wraps up behind me and comforts me at the moment when I need it the most.
I woke up this morning, and went to class, barely. It's pouring out today, and I love it. It will be nice to go home after my exam this afternoon and relax with Tom. In my philosopy class today, we started talking about Spinoza and his work, Ethics. I've always enjoyed philosophy, but do have a problem with Spinoza's work because he bases intutiton of the human spirit into this mathematical equation, which seems to be incomprable. As I raise questions in class, it seems that the ideas are awoken (if that's even a word) in the minds of my classmates, whom raise the same questions. In Part One alone, about the topic of God and the exsistance of God, Spinoza seems to contradict himself over and over, which almost makes the rest of his works be in error because Part One is the corner stone of his work.
Along with the topic of school, I've got 14 days left until I am done with my college career. I'm looking for jobs now, and a place to live... and I have to say it is looking like my move to Seattle is going to be postponed. I just have some opportunities to advance my career here in Orlando, and they look like the best option. I've always been one to follow my heart, as well as my mind, and while logically it is more benefial to stay in Orlando... I also now have Tom in my life, and if I follow my heart, I should stay in Orlando for the fact that I'm truly starting to fall in love with him. While the lust for him is so strong, it's beyond the sexual desires I have, and the fact that we are just so compatible. So... yeah... I guess that's where this journal entry is going to leave off.
I woke up this morning, and went to class, barely. It's pouring out today, and I love it. It will be nice to go home after my exam this afternoon and relax with Tom. In my philosopy class today, we started talking about Spinoza and his work, Ethics. I've always enjoyed philosophy, but do have a problem with Spinoza's work because he bases intutiton of the human spirit into this mathematical equation, which seems to be incomprable. As I raise questions in class, it seems that the ideas are awoken (if that's even a word) in the minds of my classmates, whom raise the same questions. In Part One alone, about the topic of God and the exsistance of God, Spinoza seems to contradict himself over and over, which almost makes the rest of his works be in error because Part One is the corner stone of his work.
Along with the topic of school, I've got 14 days left until I am done with my college career. I'm looking for jobs now, and a place to live... and I have to say it is looking like my move to Seattle is going to be postponed. I just have some opportunities to advance my career here in Orlando, and they look like the best option. I've always been one to follow my heart, as well as my mind, and while logically it is more benefial to stay in Orlando... I also now have Tom in my life, and if I follow my heart, I should stay in Orlando for the fact that I'm truly starting to fall in love with him. While the lust for him is so strong, it's beyond the sexual desires I have, and the fact that we are just so compatible. So... yeah... I guess that's where this journal entry is going to leave off.