what to do

Jul 19, 2004 04:21

ok...well lets see where do i start. i have been sitting here waiting for 3 mo to have a relationship with my boyfriend. the reason being he had his ex girlfriend living with him. yea i know its odd to begin with but i figured i could look past it. well after the third month im tired of looking past it. even though she should be moved out by the "middle" of this week. im just tired of waiting. SO what i want to do is tell him (this morning when he comes over after work) that we should separate for the time being until she is completly moved out and he is ready to start his life with me in it. because yesterday morning when he came over after work. he said "i hope that shes moved out by the middle of this week so i can clean before i get my new kitten" NOT so that he and i can have time together but so that he can clean before he gets his fucking CAT. grrrr i know its a little thing but on top of everyhthing else that ive put up with. it just kinda topped the cake. not to mention the fact that when i ask him to stay over in the morning a little longer then just 30 mins or so he cant because he wants to keep the peace but he can stay at work 4 hours longer then supposed to granted its work but the only reason other then being to tired for not wanting to stay at my house was because of her .....HER BEING IS FUCKING EX GIRLFRIEND WHO CONTROLS HIS LIFE AND HAS BEEN FOR THE PAST 3 FUCKING MONTHS im tired of it. so today when he comes over im going to give him is rings back say listen i care a lot about you and i love you but i cant share you so until things are finalized i cant see you because all it does is make me sad. hopefully i wont chicken out because ive never had to break up with anybody before. damn im already starting to cry i dont know how good work is going to be tomorrow. fun shit. somebody come up here and be me at 6 am in the morning and break up with him for me...or not really break up just separate for a little. AAHHHHH why cant things like this be something easy in our life. instead of something that mindfucks us everytime we think about it. :(
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