what's new
its been a while since i last wrote in here this is whats going on in my world.
~*job(s)*~
im working at blockbuster now getting only 20 hours a week at 6.10 an hour..i do however have another job lined up i just have to wait for a position to open up. that pays 7.50(or more i cant remember) an hour...only thing is its janitorial work..laugh if you must but right now i dont care what i do as long as im getting money.
~*friends*~
i miss EVERYONE down in florida SOOOOO FUCKING MUCH. and i cant wait till i can come down there and visit. i have finally made a few friends. 3 people i work with and someone i met at the mall. Bobby, Tanya, and Matt i work with...and Paul is who i met at the mall. they are all pretty cool. i saw butterfly effect with the 3 i work with then went to bobbys house and watched house of the dead(DONT SEE IT IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY) its a waste of a movie BIG TIME. paul ive been to his house twice..hung out..did "stuff" planning on hanging with him tomorrow.
~*family*~
my mom is a drunk...but hey what else is new. makes me wonder though why i packed up my life and moved here just to go through what i went through as a child. i try not to care because i dont see the point if she doesnt. i dont know how long or what it will take to make her realize that not only is she fucking up her life but her childrens too. because now im not the only one affected by it, my little brother hates it just as much as i do and i hate to have to watch him go through it...so i plan on going to an Alanon thing for people dealing with drunks in their life...maybe take him with me so we can learn how to deal with it in a non negative way. dont get me wrong...i like to drink..but i like doing it for fun she on the other hand does it to get away from her "problems" but all it does is make them disapear for a few hours and bring more problems around...then the next day she doesnt remember but WE DO.
~*future plans*~
coming to florida march 15th through i think the 26th or so i dont care what i have to do if i have to sell myself for sex ill do it just as long as i can come down...its been way to long and i need to get away from this HELL HOLE. with these two jobs i plan on saving money for a new car then after that just for money so that when june or august rolls around i will have enough money saved up to last me down in florida till i find a job...yes thats right im moving back down around that time so i can start schooling for massage therapy since there is nothing here to do so. besides like i said i need to get away from my mothers drinking because it does nothing but piss me off and i cant take it anymore.
~*shawn*~
shawn is my love. my babyboy and always will be. i will wait for him forever. i love him and he loves me back(i finally found someone that feels the same way about me as i do for them) yay! i wish i could be there for him though...i wish i could take him away from all his pain and suffering and keep him safe forever. but i dont have those kinda powers. damn!* but someday we will be together and thats what i have to look forward to :)
thats pretty much about it for now. i miss you all so much and thanks for reading up on me. im sure you dont really care. hope things are good in all your worlds. and remember i am here for any of you if you need someone to talk to. email me or something. love to all!
xoxoxoxo
~*job(s)*~
im working at blockbuster now getting only 20 hours a week at 6.10 an hour..i do however have another job lined up i just have to wait for a position to open up. that pays 7.50(or more i cant remember) an hour...only thing is its janitorial work..laugh if you must but right now i dont care what i do as long as im getting money.
~*friends*~
i miss EVERYONE down in florida SOOOOO FUCKING MUCH. and i cant wait till i can come down there and visit. i have finally made a few friends. 3 people i work with and someone i met at the mall. Bobby, Tanya, and Matt i work with...and Paul is who i met at the mall. they are all pretty cool. i saw butterfly effect with the 3 i work with then went to bobbys house and watched house of the dead(DONT SEE IT IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY) its a waste of a movie BIG TIME. paul ive been to his house twice..hung out..did "stuff" planning on hanging with him tomorrow.
~*family*~
my mom is a drunk...but hey what else is new. makes me wonder though why i packed up my life and moved here just to go through what i went through as a child. i try not to care because i dont see the point if she doesnt. i dont know how long or what it will take to make her realize that not only is she fucking up her life but her childrens too. because now im not the only one affected by it, my little brother hates it just as much as i do and i hate to have to watch him go through it...so i plan on going to an Alanon thing for people dealing with drunks in their life...maybe take him with me so we can learn how to deal with it in a non negative way. dont get me wrong...i like to drink..but i like doing it for fun she on the other hand does it to get away from her "problems" but all it does is make them disapear for a few hours and bring more problems around...then the next day she doesnt remember but WE DO.
~*future plans*~
coming to florida march 15th through i think the 26th or so i dont care what i have to do if i have to sell myself for sex ill do it just as long as i can come down...its been way to long and i need to get away from this HELL HOLE. with these two jobs i plan on saving money for a new car then after that just for money so that when june or august rolls around i will have enough money saved up to last me down in florida till i find a job...yes thats right im moving back down around that time so i can start schooling for massage therapy since there is nothing here to do so. besides like i said i need to get away from my mothers drinking because it does nothing but piss me off and i cant take it anymore.
~*shawn*~
shawn is my love. my babyboy and always will be. i will wait for him forever. i love him and he loves me back(i finally found someone that feels the same way about me as i do for them) yay! i wish i could be there for him though...i wish i could take him away from all his pain and suffering and keep him safe forever. but i dont have those kinda powers. damn!* but someday we will be together and thats what i have to look forward to :)
thats pretty much about it for now. i miss you all so much and thanks for reading up on me. im sure you dont really care. hope things are good in all your worlds. and remember i am here for any of you if you need someone to talk to. email me or something. love to all!
xoxoxoxo