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[otisjoe]

all right well i ofiicially HATE liking boys,i just do, because everytime i do its like i break the lock on the door of me and anyone and anything can get in and have the potential to really break me down. UGH i just want to join the peace cor and go off to Africa and avoid all of these stupid feelings all together

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[vogue_dreamer]

What has happen so dramatically, that has made you change your mind?

Even if you went to africa, it wouldn't change anything, geography and jobs don't change the fact that you will always be attracted to BOYS!

[otisjoe]

i havent changed my mind thats the problem, because now liking him even more i just feel it wont work out, & then it will hurt even more but i know i jut wish i liked GIRLS haha then you & i could get married and live happily ever after hehehe

[vogue_dreamer]

Don't get so attached so quickly. You have the hole summer to be home, and do whatever. Why close it down to one thing, one person, one idea.. and one(+) things that your scared of now... it's not worth it.

not at all. If you officially hate liking boys, your getting caught up in the wrong side of them. You shouldn't feel scared, or confused. If anything you should be at ease, knowing you won't get hurt.

and I will only say this one whinnie. Never go back to someone that has already hurt you or put you in a unpleasent position, once before or a couple of times, because it will only happen again.

[otisjoe]

THANKS HUNNY, you are definately right im not the smartest i dunno its the stress i guess....anyhow he has never 'hurt' me before so i dunno im just worried about the situation in general even thought it is no big deal, and it is not as fast as it seems because it has been since october so yeah.....but anyhow thank you so much hunny you always put things in perspective for me ILU! <3 whit

[vogue_dreamer]

yes, I'm aware of all this whinnie. I know he has never 'hurt' you, I don't think his that big of a fool to do that. But I AM saying, that if this been going on for so long, there are reasons for it not take a next step further I'm saying. It's been ladeduh, and I have seen times when it has effected you. That's what I'm saying. If you have learn anything from your girls, it's to not be blind of things from the beginning.

I don't prefer him whinnie. Maybe I see him from a different angle.. which I do. But I think you could not only do far better for yourself and look around and not settle on something thats been around for so long, back and forth, but this will be the only time I say this again.

Just how your not involved in my personal life, I'm not going to get invovled in yours. feel better nonetheless.

[otisjoe]

thanks darling i know what you mean, and i wish i could just forget him because it is possible it could be a big mistake since this has been lagging on forever, its just i really feel something for him and it seems different with him than the other two because it seems like he actually respects me....but im sure your right since you usually are, but if i have to get hurt to realize i made a mistake i guess i will because that is how we learn, i hate not taking your advice because besides my mama you know me better then anyone, but i just really think i feel something this time, and i dont want to ignore it. i love you so much though seriously i think my life would be hell without you....thank you so so so very much! <3 whit
ps-just writing with you has made me feel ten times better!!! you really are my best friend in the world! ILU!