life sucks
and you realize you have to go on.
matt would want me to be happy. so i am done crying.
i pray compulsively. but i know in my heart he knows my mind does not leave him for long and he will be okay.
boyo is making me supersad. i love him but i am not ready for this.
my bitchiness is coming out like whoa because of his friends/ my ex friends evidently.
colleen has volunteered herself to say something to adam about their friends.
because its not fair to me or boyo and im walking away because thats what i do best.
then there is new boyo. who actual boyo does not know about. because i did not know new boyo jason likes me.
he is going to europe with me and he lives with amys bro. so i thought oo we'll be friends.
yeah no. so tonight we saw him walking to my car and he almost hit us with his lexus.
so now not only does colleenn make fun of me because boyo has an audi. but yeah. rich boys. piss me off. cute damn it.
we went to waffle house to study and colleen tells the wqaiter who was hitting on me to pull up a chair. yeah kill her. so then everyone in waffle house is talking to us cause its so small. and im embarrassed as hell.
so tomorrow. colleen is talking to boyo. because i need to see how he reacts with my friends now. and then i am deciding what i am going to do about my life. this cant continue the way it is.
and im no longer going to be upset because of boys. i am young and this is totally unnecessary.
so goodnight.
matt would want me to be happy. so i am done crying.
i pray compulsively. but i know in my heart he knows my mind does not leave him for long and he will be okay.
boyo is making me supersad. i love him but i am not ready for this.
my bitchiness is coming out like whoa because of his friends/ my ex friends evidently.
colleen has volunteered herself to say something to adam about their friends.
because its not fair to me or boyo and im walking away because thats what i do best.
then there is new boyo. who actual boyo does not know about. because i did not know new boyo jason likes me.
he is going to europe with me and he lives with amys bro. so i thought oo we'll be friends.
yeah no. so tonight we saw him walking to my car and he almost hit us with his lexus.
so now not only does colleenn make fun of me because boyo has an audi. but yeah. rich boys. piss me off. cute damn it.
we went to waffle house to study and colleen tells the wqaiter who was hitting on me to pull up a chair. yeah kill her. so then everyone in waffle house is talking to us cause its so small. and im embarrassed as hell.
so tomorrow. colleen is talking to boyo. because i need to see how he reacts with my friends now. and then i am deciding what i am going to do about my life. this cant continue the way it is.
and im no longer going to be upset because of boys. i am young and this is totally unnecessary.
so goodnight.