so hear me roar.
Okay, this post is long overdue, and god damn it, I've got some words I want to share.Something strong came over me tonight, something so strong that my whole Self is completely changed as the result. I never knew that it would hit so fast or with such force, but I'm damn happy it's here now; I've been waiting for a long time.
Fuck beauty. Fuck sugarcoated words with poetic light to them. I can say this without out all of that; I can say it simply and honestly, I can say it with TRUTH. And there won't be one apology beforehand nor will there be a care in the world if I insult anyone or not. The truth is, I don't give a SHIT what anyone has to say about this so you're wasting your time by having an opinion.
I'm a really kick ass person. And I mean it. I have some incredibly neat traits that I really fucking take pride in. There's not one person who can tell me otherwise, because even if they do, I will disregard it so quickly and just continue knowing everything I need to know: That I am a person who has everything she needs in her personality and though sure, there's room to change, there is nothing wrong with the place I am at NOW. No one can talk down to me; no one can tell me I'm wrong in my actions. They are all justified in MY head, so what the fuck does it matter if someone disagrees. [Especially someone who is so cowardly that they cant even post their own name, mind you. ;>] I love myself and I'm not scared of anything anymore.
I have this new philosophy that I'm living by and that is I've got nothing to lose. I can't waste one more moment standing back and hoping to keep the peace by keeping my mouth shut. I've been walked on and trampled over in the past, but it was only because I LET PEOPLE DO IT. I was the pacifist. So in response to that, I used to bitch and whine and feel helpless because there was nothing I could do. Well holy shit, now I see it -- there is something I can do. It's as easy as opening my mouth up and stating the truth. I don't deserve that treatment and I'm going to make sure people know that. Fuck if they don't like me after that; at least I'll have the respect for standing up in what I believe in.
My parents already are disappointed in me, I don't have many friends, and close to no one respects me anymore. So seriously, what the hell do I have to lose by standing up for myself and being proud of what I am? Absolutely fucking nothing. I'm honest enough with myself to know I have faults and I'm smart enough to know there's room for improvement. No judgement anyone offers on me will knock me down because it's something I hear regardless almost every day from my own self.
I'm going to continue this later, but right now I need to listen to my Tori Amos and revel in this newfound confidence. I feel SO MUCH BETTER already.
Fuck beauty. Fuck sugarcoated words with poetic light to them. I can say this without out all of that; I can say it simply and honestly, I can say it with TRUTH. And there won't be one apology beforehand nor will there be a care in the world if I insult anyone or not. The truth is, I don't give a SHIT what anyone has to say about this so you're wasting your time by having an opinion.
I'm a really kick ass person. And I mean it. I have some incredibly neat traits that I really fucking take pride in. There's not one person who can tell me otherwise, because even if they do, I will disregard it so quickly and just continue knowing everything I need to know: That I am a person who has everything she needs in her personality and though sure, there's room to change, there is nothing wrong with the place I am at NOW. No one can talk down to me; no one can tell me I'm wrong in my actions. They are all justified in MY head, so what the fuck does it matter if someone disagrees. [Especially someone who is so cowardly that they cant even post their own name, mind you. ;>] I love myself and I'm not scared of anything anymore.
I have this new philosophy that I'm living by and that is I've got nothing to lose. I can't waste one more moment standing back and hoping to keep the peace by keeping my mouth shut. I've been walked on and trampled over in the past, but it was only because I LET PEOPLE DO IT. I was the pacifist. So in response to that, I used to bitch and whine and feel helpless because there was nothing I could do. Well holy shit, now I see it -- there is something I can do. It's as easy as opening my mouth up and stating the truth. I don't deserve that treatment and I'm going to make sure people know that. Fuck if they don't like me after that; at least I'll have the respect for standing up in what I believe in.
My parents already are disappointed in me, I don't have many friends, and close to no one respects me anymore. So seriously, what the hell do I have to lose by standing up for myself and being proud of what I am? Absolutely fucking nothing. I'm honest enough with myself to know I have faults and I'm smart enough to know there's room for improvement. No judgement anyone offers on me will knock me down because it's something I hear regardless almost every day from my own self.
I'm going to continue this later, but right now I need to listen to my Tori Amos and revel in this newfound confidence. I feel SO MUCH BETTER already.