Nervous.
I look nervous when I present, I've been told by those I work with. And present to. I spoke on Thurday to about a dozen of the folks who do analytic and pharmaceutical chemistry. The subject was a new Design of Experiment scheme that cuts--inserting in its place computation and modeling--the more traditional stage of actually thinking about which formulations perform best. And the validation experiment needed to back it up looks like further mindless drudgery. But even with the nervousness and the surface unpalatability of the proposal, I think the case was effectively made.
A parallel case being made is that I continue to work this position. For I am still a contract employee and the weeks are starting to count down to the point where they must decide if they want to take me on permanently. The subtext of the presentation was that they should buy into me, as well as the proposal. And I think that that is why I was nervous.
Alternatively, the above is my attempt to impose a self-congratulatory and pretentious narrative on the real story that I put off serious practice of the presentation to the last moment, making me understandably nervous about my ability to perform well in front of an audience.
I am not nervous about the marathon tomorrow.
A parallel case being made is that I continue to work this position. For I am still a contract employee and the weeks are starting to count down to the point where they must decide if they want to take me on permanently. The subtext of the presentation was that they should buy into me, as well as the proposal. And I think that that is why I was nervous.
Alternatively, the above is my attempt to impose a self-congratulatory and pretentious narrative on the real story that I put off serious practice of the presentation to the last moment, making me understandably nervous about my ability to perform well in front of an audience.
I am not nervous about the marathon tomorrow.