To Whom it May Concern
This has been a long time in coming, and I've been meaning to tell several people very close to me for some time, but it was only last night when I realized the full brunt of this news I'm about to share.
This is mainly for my school friends, so if you know me through the internet or don't go to my high school, then you're free to keep reading if you so wish, but be aware this does not concern you directly in any way. (I have no idea why I'm even putting that last comment up, I guess I'm just trying to avoid what is coming...*sighs*)
I've not been doing well in my high school for the past two years and I've been counciled many times on changing schools. I held back because I really, really love my school and everyone there and I hated the idea of leaving all that behind. I didn't want to just give up like that, I wanted to make it work any way that I could, because I just love it where I am. I can't express that enough...
There is a lot of else from my past that feeds into this and I don't like discussing it, especially here, so I'm not really going to get into all of that...
At any rate, after a meeting with my doctor, the school psychologist and my personal psychiatrist-type person, they strongly suggested that I try another school for a year called SCPA (School for Creative and Performing Arts.)
My current school is quite competetive and hard, so it's not that I'm stupid (I dunno, everyone just keeps telling me I'm not), it's just that my HS goes at a pace that is too fast and demanding for me, considering I have a slow-comprehension level. You see, I'm much more English and Artistcally oriented and I'm not only slow in math and science, but I have a slow-comprehension level as well. Meaning by the time I grasp an idea, the teacher has already moved on and so I continue to miss information. Also, my current school does not offer much for creative writing and since I want to be a writer in the future, that's not good for me. Also, due to low grades, I'm not likely to get into the college of my choice no matter how good of a writer I am. In other words, it would be best for me to go to SCPA and get good grades AND further my writing future than it would be for me to stay at my current HS where I'm happy and comfortable.
I like the idea of trying out this school, but I'm not sure about leaving my old school, even it's just for a year to try it out. Thing is, the school requires someone to try-out/audition to get in and auditions are already over, considering that they start on the 15th, the same day as my current school. Mother is phoning them about a last-minute squeeze-in and plans on explaining the situation (The staff supposedly loves students from my current HS.)
So there is my dilemma. Try a different school for my junior year, or stay at my current school and struggle? I have no idea what to do and I'll have to make up my mind soon. I really didn't want to tell anyone about this, but there are several of you out there that more than deserve to know and I'm fully aware of how stupid it would be of me to not let all of my friends know about what's going on. I just...don't like sharing things like this...it's not good to stress other people with my problems...
Yeah, there you have it and I think I'm gonna go read or something now. I'm not...so good right now...
This is mainly for my school friends, so if you know me through the internet or don't go to my high school, then you're free to keep reading if you so wish, but be aware this does not concern you directly in any way. (I have no idea why I'm even putting that last comment up, I guess I'm just trying to avoid what is coming...*sighs*)
I've not been doing well in my high school for the past two years and I've been counciled many times on changing schools. I held back because I really, really love my school and everyone there and I hated the idea of leaving all that behind. I didn't want to just give up like that, I wanted to make it work any way that I could, because I just love it where I am. I can't express that enough...
There is a lot of else from my past that feeds into this and I don't like discussing it, especially here, so I'm not really going to get into all of that...
At any rate, after a meeting with my doctor, the school psychologist and my personal psychiatrist-type person, they strongly suggested that I try another school for a year called SCPA (School for Creative and Performing Arts.)
My current school is quite competetive and hard, so it's not that I'm stupid (I dunno, everyone just keeps telling me I'm not), it's just that my HS goes at a pace that is too fast and demanding for me, considering I have a slow-comprehension level. You see, I'm much more English and Artistcally oriented and I'm not only slow in math and science, but I have a slow-comprehension level as well. Meaning by the time I grasp an idea, the teacher has already moved on and so I continue to miss information. Also, my current school does not offer much for creative writing and since I want to be a writer in the future, that's not good for me. Also, due to low grades, I'm not likely to get into the college of my choice no matter how good of a writer I am. In other words, it would be best for me to go to SCPA and get good grades AND further my writing future than it would be for me to stay at my current HS where I'm happy and comfortable.
I like the idea of trying out this school, but I'm not sure about leaving my old school, even it's just for a year to try it out. Thing is, the school requires someone to try-out/audition to get in and auditions are already over, considering that they start on the 15th, the same day as my current school. Mother is phoning them about a last-minute squeeze-in and plans on explaining the situation (The staff supposedly loves students from my current HS.)
So there is my dilemma. Try a different school for my junior year, or stay at my current school and struggle? I have no idea what to do and I'll have to make up my mind soon. I really didn't want to tell anyone about this, but there are several of you out there that more than deserve to know and I'm fully aware of how stupid it would be of me to not let all of my friends know about what's going on. I just...don't like sharing things like this...it's not good to stress other people with my problems...
Yeah, there you have it and I think I'm gonna go read or something now. I'm not...so good right now...