so fucking upset/guest party members
I'm so fucking upset right now. I don't even know what to say. I just had a long phone call i wont be soon forgeting with a best friend. Though the phone call was depressing as hell due to the topics/matters at hand we still had a joyously humorus time talking like we always do, the sign of a true friend. But im so upset right now the one thing i hate most about life is losing friends and here we go again its happening right in front of my eyes and its been happening for some time. Hes getting kicked out of his home, some peoples parents are far more "hardcore" than mine i realize this but i guess my fucked hopelessly positive perspectve always kept thinking that everything would be okay and that he'd be fine by some strange turn of fate, but now its happening the worst is happening and i cant stop crying about it. He didnt sound too upset, hes still got his fuck the world views but he always has and thats part of who he is. I guess i will never understand why someone in such a position wouldnt accept the curtisey and help from those around him who love him and really do care for him. Proof of how much we care is how upset everyone i talk to is, and you know this.
Ive recently realized that all thru my life basically ive had many close friends who left me for various reasons, each of them left me. One after another each of them good friends who i could really get a long with, all with something else in mind. A guest party memeber comes to mind when im thinking retrospecively and it seems to fit far two well... someone who you allow in your party and you trust everything with but they just decide to get up and leave one day for whatever reason and theres nothing you can do to change that. it sucks so much. I keep thinking how much i wish there was something more i could do but i cant and even if i could afford to house you and give you money i dont think you would accept. that being said im not giving up on you i dont care about what anyone else says im going to try and keep you my friend the rest of my life, it may hurt it may be fucking retarded of me but as of right now i dont wanna give you up. I wish that fucking bull inside your soul would calm down and listen to reason once in a while or accept that you arent always on top and thats just the way things are. Im gonna stop the tears and try to be productive now tho work in an hour is the last of the things i would like to do today. Im keepin the postive perspective that you know me for breda's law states that this is just getting worse so that things can get better so cheer up ill try to put a smile on at my zombie job just for you. I love you man, i dont want to lose you and i hope you feel the same but i guess time will tell.
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Later
DC, Dan, Breda, Patches (the clown? wtf)
Ive recently realized that all thru my life basically ive had many close friends who left me for various reasons, each of them left me. One after another each of them good friends who i could really get a long with, all with something else in mind. A guest party memeber comes to mind when im thinking retrospecively and it seems to fit far two well... someone who you allow in your party and you trust everything with but they just decide to get up and leave one day for whatever reason and theres nothing you can do to change that. it sucks so much. I keep thinking how much i wish there was something more i could do but i cant and even if i could afford to house you and give you money i dont think you would accept. that being said im not giving up on you i dont care about what anyone else says im going to try and keep you my friend the rest of my life, it may hurt it may be fucking retarded of me but as of right now i dont wanna give you up. I wish that fucking bull inside your soul would calm down and listen to reason once in a while or accept that you arent always on top and thats just the way things are. Im gonna stop the tears and try to be productive now tho work in an hour is the last of the things i would like to do today. Im keepin the postive perspective that you know me for breda's law states that this is just getting worse so that things can get better so cheer up ill try to put a smile on at my zombie job just for you. I love you man, i dont want to lose you and i hope you feel the same but i guess time will tell.
CLAPTRAP ASSEMBLED NOW AND FOREVER
Later
DC, Dan, Breda, Patches (the clown? wtf)