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so things have kinda sucked all winter, i kinda chalked it up to it being winter, but it seems that my winters just keep getting worse...so as much as it pains me to admit that maybe some medication would help me with my emotions, i think i'm going to try it...ryan cheated on me with one of his exs in march and i just found out friday morning...mostly because my gut has been screaming at me for the past month...i've been extremely tired since, mind has just decided to shut down i guess...for the sake of saving myself money (and maybe not my sanity) i've agreed to remain roommates until the end of our lease in oct or nov...i still care about him and his health, but at the same time, if it's painful and determental to my health to stay in this apartment, i'm going to have to take care of myself...so i'm going to try it, see how it works, we obviously have been good friends for a while...but friends don't hurt other friends like that either...so i'm taking it day by day...i'm so thankful to all the support i've had with my family, my friends, and my coworkers...i've had numerous offers to stay with people, go out, just talk, and i really appreciate that and i'm actually surprised that many people are willing to offer that kind of help...last week sometime i got caught up in a tv sermon and it was about how things don't happen to you, they happen for you...it really touched me and i think that's what's going to get me through this...