Im not sure what to think...

[osuboone]

So i found out today that ill be doing my student teaching in an urban school, despite the fact that i had tried to schedule it for a suburban school. I tried to get into parma, westlake and lakewood. Instead i got into rhodes west high school. Im not sure what i think about it. i hear that its tough to deal with things there and i hear that its a good school by different people. i wish i got what i want, but sometimes things that seem to be going well hit the fan. Im not excited about being in a tough school, cause thats not what i picture teaching at this point as a career. thats another thing, i know what i should do and i know what i want to do. how do i determine what is best for me in the long run? I know i should stick around here for a couple of years and get myself outta the debt hole that has come to define me in many ways. i am broke and i know it, i just wish that i could get outta it and still do what i want to do and move away from here. cleveland may appear to be a decent city to an outsider, but its so extraordianarily negative when you live here. im not just talking about people complaining about not having a nice job or even about the crime rate here. im talking it seems to be prevalent in everything about this town. the sports teams might do ok but they will find a way to screw it up. the downtown is beautiful but no businesses want to locate there in a commercial sense. cleveland schools are doing better but they never have enough money to survive. why can everybody say that something is ok but it sucks more because of this or that? I need to get outta here cause i find myself in that type of rut. i need a town to live in that is positive and has ideas and has a plan to succeed. even if something fails you have much more positive things that can result than negative consequences. ok im off my soap box now. I just need to figure out if the best thing for me right now is to move away as soon as im done and get a job where i want to, or to stay here for a few years and get outta debt and then move away and seek out other opportunities. If i move away right away i risk having to move back cause i cant afford to live away, if i stick around i risk getting in the position that means its easier to stick around than to pick up and move after a couple of years in the field. well this is my rant for the week. if you have any suggestions let me know and ill take them into account

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