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Gah. I was thinking about grad school today and it always sends me into a whirlwind of lower and lower self-confidence. Today's bout was particularly stupid because it all started by doing fantastic on a practice GRE. Somehow, this got me worried about bombing an actual GRE. (I don't get it. There is no logic to that at all.) Then I started thinking about trying to get letters of recommendation, and how the change in fields could make me look wishy-washy, and blah blah blah. I need to find some happy medium of being able to think and plan, but not over-think and wind up feeling freaked out. Plus, it might not hurt to keep in mind that even if every program I apply to rejects me, it doesn't mean I can't apply again later. I'd just need to get myself better prepared before applying again. This is one of those things I have control over. If I want it and work for it, it will happen someday, and although I'd obviously prefer 'someday' to be sooner rather than later, it will happen.
Really, this pep-talk was more for my benefit than for any of you. Props to Rob, though, for telling me I'm awesome on demand. ;-)
To be fair, there has been some more family drama going down, but I'm not in the mood to discuss it. I do think I would have taken my GRE practice test score positively if I hadn't already been out of sorts from the family stuff.
Really, this pep-talk was more for my benefit than for any of you. Props to Rob, though, for telling me I'm awesome on demand. ;-)
To be fair, there has been some more family drama going down, but I'm not in the mood to discuss it. I do think I would have taken my GRE practice test score positively if I hadn't already been out of sorts from the family stuff.