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I'm tired and kind of shaky, probably because it's cold. |D (/genius) But I've been neglecting this thing. I've just had no desire to say anything, I guess. I've been keeping up okay with my f-list's journals though! You guys are cool kids.
We're going to finish the last of the Christmas shopping tomorrow, and then clean up the house so we can put up the Christmas decorations and eat a good dinner together on Saturday. (If we didn't have my sister, none of that holiday nonsense would go up at all, but we do, so it does.)
My mom has the month of December off and has been coming with my sister and I when I take her walking. It's good - she cooperates better when my mom's there. Tonight I couldn't keep up after making it about halfway down the hill. My chest just started hurting again, after being fine allll the way up. I think mom might actually finally believe that it hurts, and that I'm not just fucking crazy or making shit up. She said she'd call Dr. Coleman tomorrow. He's not my doctor, he's my sister's, but she says he's the only one who caught my sister's asthma so he might be able to recommend someone who sees adult patients.
We don't have the money for doctor visits. We really don't. I feel bad enough being the one who has to say 'no', or 'we don't have the money right now', so I feel shitty spending it on myself. I keep thinking that maybe if it's a specialist this time they'll figure it out though. There's a lot of things it could be! But I am (unfortunately) fantastically morbid and have jumped on all the horrible possibilities primarily. It's stupid, but it's made me kind of a wreck at night, when it starts hurting and I'm by myself. I'd really like it if all this worrying was for nothing. ♥
On the plus side, I have been watching Sherlock Holmes short movies from the mid-80s, and those are fantastic, and my library card got renewed, which is also fantastic, and I have been playing Neopets again. You are welcome to say what you will about it - between my mom and my brother, I've heard it all ;) - BUT LEMME JUST SAY. Talk about character fodder, man. The last time I had inspiration this fun was when I first got into World of Darkness. But don't worry, I won't spam about it or anything.
Okay, holyshit, wall of text.
And it's past 4 am now. I think it's bedtime now.
♥
We're going to finish the last of the Christmas shopping tomorrow, and then clean up the house so we can put up the Christmas decorations and eat a good dinner together on Saturday. (If we didn't have my sister, none of that holiday nonsense would go up at all, but we do, so it does.)
My mom has the month of December off and has been coming with my sister and I when I take her walking. It's good - she cooperates better when my mom's there. Tonight I couldn't keep up after making it about halfway down the hill. My chest just started hurting again, after being fine allll the way up. I think mom might actually finally believe that it hurts, and that I'm not just fucking crazy or making shit up. She said she'd call Dr. Coleman tomorrow. He's not my doctor, he's my sister's, but she says he's the only one who caught my sister's asthma so he might be able to recommend someone who sees adult patients.
We don't have the money for doctor visits. We really don't. I feel bad enough being the one who has to say 'no', or 'we don't have the money right now', so I feel shitty spending it on myself. I keep thinking that maybe if it's a specialist this time they'll figure it out though. There's a lot of things it could be! But I am (unfortunately) fantastically morbid and have jumped on all the horrible possibilities primarily. It's stupid, but it's made me kind of a wreck at night, when it starts hurting and I'm by myself. I'd really like it if all this worrying was for nothing. ♥
On the plus side, I have been watching Sherlock Holmes short movies from the mid-80s, and those are fantastic, and my library card got renewed, which is also fantastic, and I have been playing Neopets again. You are welcome to say what you will about it - between my mom and my brother, I've heard it all ;) - BUT LEMME JUST SAY. Talk about character fodder, man. The last time I had inspiration this fun was when I first got into World of Darkness. But don't worry, I won't spam about it or anything.
Okay, holyshit, wall of text.
And it's past 4 am now. I think it's bedtime now.
♥